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BTN otsukaresamadeshita!

chou tanoshikattadesuga, chou tsukaremashita! (sangat best dan sangat penat)

huhuh..persepsi berubah bila dah sampai sana dan jumpa dengan kawan2 baru yg sangat besh.especially geng dorm D2 dan kumpulan 5...

sesungguhnya byk la benda nak cerita pasal BTN,tapi kerja saya sangat la menimbun dan rasa macam diri nih tertimbus dlm kerja sendiri..semuanya mengejar dateline...

ringkasan mengenai btn di kem bina negara kulim kedah

1. jumpa ramai kawan n dapat ramai kawan baru yg sempoi, dr dlm UM, IPDA(institut perguruan darul aman) dan IPSAH(institut perguruan sultan abdul halim)
2. aktiviti di dewan sejuk beku,dengar ceramah which mostly about politics sampai rasa mual dgr perkataan politik tu sendirik..tp sebenarnya i learned a lot from this slot...seriously, untuk org mcm saya yg tak suka amek tau sgt pasal politik,rasa kecik sungguh diri ini n lps nih tanam azam baru...
3. belajar semula pasal sejarah malaysia.bermula dr sejarah tanah melayu dijajah dulu2 sampai la keadaan negara sekarang.seronok jugak, walaupon sambil tersengguk2 dlm ldk tu dgr Tn Hj. Salleh bercerita itu ini... sememangnya sejarah patut diajar dlm bentuk bercerita supaya kita tak bosan dan ngantuk.kalu ada animasi lagi best :)
4. aktiviti dlm LDK yg mostly nk tgk sejauh mana kesedaran kita ttg negara,bangsa,agama...yg mana satu kita sayang... walaupon masing2 ada pendapat dan buah fikiran masing2,kami belajar memandang drpd perspektif yg lebih luas.
5. aktiviti dalam kumpulan terutamanya slot pd mlm terakhir tu mmg mencabar. kena selesaikan masalah tanpa boleh bercakap,cuma guna bahasa isyarat utk sama2 ahli dlm kumpulan.dengan kumpulan lain pulak,langsung xboleh bercakap dan guna bahasa isyarat...sape langgar rules kena tangkap,gari n selotep mulut...syian,ketua kami,mior dan k.maheran yg berjuang tp akhirnya ditangkap.tp kami berjaya mendapat tempat pertama..caya laa.sesungguhnya saya tidak boleh tidak bercakap utk jangka masa yg lama..lemas!!
6. menyanyi lagu, Inilah Barisan Kita sambil buat gaya kawat n menyanyi penuh semangat..walaupon kalah,kami gumbira sbb dpt buat terbaik n kawan2 yg lain sama2 tepuk tgn masa kami menyanyi.
7. aktiviti repealing(macam ni ke ejanyer??) .. dulu masa btn kat balik pulau dah pernah buat,tp still rasa cuak tu ada laa..but, i know somehow kena buat jugak..bila dah sampai kat atas tu,lepak2 dulu cari semangat,bila dah ready baru turun...siap posing amek gmbr lagi..xsempat nk buat peace sbb tangan kena cover tali kat blkg...huhu...ada ke patut derang kata saya turun macam menari ballet...ciss.. kata org,biar lmbt asal selamat maa.....hahahah
8. aktiviti kembara paling best.2jam tu rasa pendek sgt.siap ada yg request next time buat check point byk sket...hehehhe..meniarap atas lumpur,merentas dua batang kayu sambil merangkak dgn bawahnya ada sungai kecik yg ada byk pacat...eeeiii..saya xboleh dgn pacat.naik turun mendaki bukit yg licin...merentas curam dgn dua utas tali...bila dah lepas,on the way balik,kami jamu diri dgn buah rambutan yg ranum berbuah disepanjang jalan tepi kem..of course,kami dah minta izin dgn fasi dulu ;)sape yg tak makan tu rugi wooo...sodapp!
9. mandi air kolah..i can't remember the last time mandi air kolah sambil berkemban... bgn pagi2 pkl 445.pkl 530pg dah kat surau tunggu subuh..makan berjemaah ramai2 dlm kumpulan...yg best part bila ajk dewan makan kata,"kawan2,jemput makan" kami kena jawab "terima kasih" sambil buat aksi tangan yg comel...tak tau nk explain camne..dua2 tgn letak kat paras dada pastu lambai2 ke kanan kiri..n not to forget,menari pocho2 yg diketuai oleh Pak Jeffri ;)
10. first time tgk cerita Hati Malaya..besh rupanyer cite tu.korang pon patut tgk. byk cerita pasal sejarah tanah melayu.bila buat dlm bentuk filem lagi senang nk paham macam mana perjuangan orang dulu2 utk menuntut kemerdekaan.bukan mudah... ada yg mengalirkan air mata tgk muvi tu.. dan tayangan klip mengenai keadaan negara kita, dan bagaimana seharusnya kita bertuah dgn apa yg kita ada di negara kita hari ini jika nk dibandingkan dgn negara2 lain yg sedang bertelagah.. sangat menyayat hati...ada yg xsanggup nk tgk... anak2 yg menjadi mangsa peperangan, manusia yg berbunuhan sesama bangsa...alangkah bertuahnya kita di Malaysia ni...

byk lagi sebenarnya,tp cukuplah diringkaskan.byk juga kami bahaskan secara formal dan tidak formal... byk yg kami belajar baik dr fasilitator mahupun kawan2 sekursus...

owh yer.. nak ucapkan byk2 terima kasih pada Pak Jeffri,walaupun i know possibility for him to read this blog is like 0.00001%... dia byk membantu,byk berkongsi cerita.. bg gmbar free, bg air minerak yg dibekukan utk bekal ke kembara, bg durian siap utk bawa balik kl...tp bukan durian saya yg menyebabkan bas satu lagi itu ber'perfume' durian yer kawan2... ;)pak jeffri nih baik dgn saya sbb muka saya iras2 muka anak dia ;)

terima kasih jugak utk semua fasilitator yg lain..semuanya senpoi!

terima kasih juga utk sahabat2 yg sama2 berkursus especially Ira, Nis, Sutha, Nadiah, K.maheran, k.Erna dan semua2 laa...

especially geng kumpulan 5 yg saya dah bulatkan dlm gambr tu..

Zaid,Mior,Rissyafreen,Amran,Mad,Nadiah,Adawiyyah,K.Maheran,K.Yan,Nani,K.Fathiyah dan k.Haslinda... korang besh! :D

sekian saja laporan saya tentang BTN yg mula2nyer saya xsuka nk pergi :p

Happy Father's Day

i'm not gonna be able to celebrate father's day this year..so,we had an early celebration last nite..a fine dining somewhere both of us love to lepak2... i haven't wish him father's day, i haven't even bought anything for him... mana nk ada masa gi cari hadiah pon... while everyone is celebrating their father, their husband for being a father to their child, i'm gonna be somewhere in kulim doing things i know would bored me..uishh,serius xde hati dan perasaan nk pergi.hati kering.rasa jasad jer pergi,hati duduk kat rumah dgn rayyan.pagi tadi,sebelum keluar rumah,tah berapa kali mommy keluar masuk bilik kiss rayyan yg masih lagi tidur...rasa xpuas..mmg xkan pernah puas... i need his smell, his scent, his smile and his everything... boleh ke mommy survive nih? 5hari tu lama woo... OMG! can't even imagine...

anyway, i hope both of them have a nice 'father & son' trip together balik kampung this evening. .. i'm gonna miss both of you. you know i love you two... thank you for being my inspiration, the ones that keep me walking this path even in times it seems hard, you make it easier for me.

for ayang, thank you for being the best father to Rayyan,my child. i'm really proud of you... for the unconditional love and never ending support... i pray for you health, prosperous and joy... may Allah bless you and us all...

~ HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL FATHERS & FATHERS2BE ~

ok,gtg. i dont wanna miss my bus...

perasan tak??

perasan tak??

bila orang datang kat kita dgn apa2 masalah, masalah kerja, masalah peribadi masalah apa2 jer laa.. ada jer kata2 atau ayat2 yg boleh kita cakap kat dia utk buat dia rasa kurang tertekan atau relieve? pandai jer otak kita dok pusing2 cari ayat apa boleh buat dia okay... hentam jer la pujangga mana2 pon, at least kita bole buat dia senyum... lupa seketika masalah dia.

tp kalau diri kita sendiri dlm tekanan, masalah, kesuraman etc, xkisah la banyak mana pon kita pernah nasihat kat orang..atau org anggap kita sbg tpt boleh mengadu mcm2 masalah, still when it's our time to get upset or stressed, we need someone to comfort ourselves.we know we shouldn't act like a baby but we just need to hear it from someone else..hearing the words coming from other people somehow make us feel better... eventhough, the things they say might just be those typical words people say to help ease the pain inside...

as simple as," xper laa, nanti2 ok la tu.."

and know what???

i could use some of those rite now... :((

yes, i think i'm gonna cry with all these work loads!!

with all the work that's waiting to be done in line

and with the btn that's coming this saturday for 5days at kedah...

alone..no rayyan,no kekasih hati

(dgn barang2 yg tak tercari lagi...baju putih xde,kain hitam sehelai jer,kasut hitam xde...track bottom xde!!mana nak carikkk baju putih???)

it's like a silent killer!!

kalau rayyan ada senang jer nk tersenyum...

tgk muka dia pon boleh gelak.tp rayyan xde kat ofis nih...

i'm still at the office.today might be till 8pm again...

yadaaaa!!!

xdpt tgk rayyan, tgk gambar pon jadi laaa...

Rayyan wearing tomoi boxer pants yg kami beli kat Krabi... :D

Rayyan dgn aksi comel

Rayyan dgn aksi gelak besar Rayyan dgn aksi menggoda Rayyan dgn aksi garang Rayyan dgn aksi suka hati

The little things in life

Because life is mostly the little things. Big things only happen once in a very long while. And the big things are often just a bunch of little things grouped together. Life is too short to only savor the big moments. It’s the little things like a child’s smirk or a funny phrase made by someone or the sky decorated with rainbow..all those small little things that will stay with you for a lifetime.

sometimes, a picture which is not related to us touches us most...

something might not be interesting in others eyes, but do wonders to us...

sometimes,we're rushing in life to go for the big thing that we forget all the little things that keeps us going...

what did this tiny little creature is trying to do? it's just as big as my nail

but it sure have the power to create a big thing

and that something sometimes seems impossible

pictures from Mysara's Krabi album

Little Mr. Scoffield

~Rayyan is 1year 10months 2weeks 3days old~

now you see it...

now you don't!

last weekend we cut his hair.mommy dah xtahan tgk rambut rayyan panjang.bukan jeles yer.. dah repair yg kat tepi telinga supaya xgaru2,tp still dia dok menggaru jugak.mungkin sbb bila rambut panjang senang berpeluh,pastu mula la tangan merayap kat kepala...geramm!!

last2,bawa jugak dia gi gunting rambut kat kedai ...fyi,rayyan hate to have a hair cut...masuk jer kedai gunting rambut,muka dia dah lain macam...cuak..dia dah cam kot,kalau kedai ada cermin byk,lps tu dia kena duduk depan cermin tu..sah! it's horrible okay... mamak tu bawa keluar mesin gunting jer,dia dah start nangis...bukan menangis yg sikit2, meraung siap semua..berjurai2 air mata.lagi dahsyat drpd nangis kena jab.mommy ngan daddy yg tgk nih dah xtau nk buat apa..bg la apa barang sekalipun dia xlayan.siap mainkan lagu ponyo2 kat hp pon xjalan...xlama lepas tu, ada satu couple masuk kedai bawa anak..perempuan dlm umur 3tahun lebih kot..pastu dia cakap,"mama,baby nangis..." sambil tunjuk kat rayyan...bila dgr suara budak perempuan tu,rayyan terus senyap kejap.pastu dia tgk budak tu...at the same time mamak tu makin ligat menjalankan kerjanya...lps tu,rayyan sambung nangis balik..budak perempuan tu pujuk2 rayyan kata jgn nangis..rayyan pon layan kejap..senyapp...ciss,anak jantan aku ni...sabarr jer laa... xkan nk pinjam anak pompuan org everytime nk gunting rambut

anyway, mmg payah nk bawa dia ni pegi gunting rambut.tp mommy mmg xboleh tgk anak teruna dia rambut panjang...well,at least not now.masa mommy kecik2 pon,eventhough i'm my emak's baby girl, mak lebih prefer anak pompuan kesayangannya nih berambut pendek.mmg masa sekolah rendah especially,mommy berambut pendek.sampai la darjah 5/6 camtu..baru la minta mak permission nk rambut sampai bahu..mak bg syarat,rambut depan mesti pendek.pastu rambut kena selalu ikat jgn menggerbang.byk woo syarat..xkesah laa..kalau tak mmg pesen rambut budak lelaki.lps tu siap pakai anting2 jurai2...nak bergaya la katakan.malu kalau tgk gmbr masa tu..xsesuai sungguh.dah naik sekolah menengah baru la jadi girly sket.rambut pjg..

masa kecik2 nih rasanyer budak2 lelaki xsesuai rambut panjang.pernah jugak nmpk anak org,yg mak ayah nyer buat mcm2 pesen rambut kat anak depa..yg ada ekor la,yg warnakan rambut anak laa..in my humble opinion, i don't think that's a good idea though...kalau org lelaki yg dah besar pon kita xsedap mata nk tgk rambut kaler2 mcm org kuala... yg ekor sana sini,yg tercacak2 mcm punk,atau yg tocang halus2 tu..budak2 lagi laa...kesian pon ada... xtau la kalau budak2 tu yg minta pesen camtu... kalau rambut pjg tp mmg kemas dan terjaga rapi..no problem laa.. on the contrary,kalau girl rambut pjg comel la..lg la kalau yg rambut ikal2 tu..sukerrr! especially,kalau bapak2 biasanyer suka kalau anak perempuan berambut pjg..

amboi..pjg lebar cerita pasal rambut..cukup2! so skg rayyan dah botak dgn nama timangan, mr. scoffield junior ..heheheh :D

this last picture is the view i always had almost everyday before going to work...sblm pergi kerja wajib bawa rayyan pusing satu round..kiss2, salam, and say goodbye with his flying kiss make it harder for me to leave...but rayyan is okay,xde la nangis2 xnak keluar kereta..he's a good boy!

it's even harder when he's looking back at me as i leave... :(

Congratulations to Koli & Isya

as i mentioned before, last weekend we went to Ipoh for my senior, koli's reception.rombongan Fukuians dari kuala lumpur,6 kereta lebih kurang 16orang(termasuk anak,bini,makwe,kawan2 fukuians).the troop met up at hentian rawang for breakfast.we started our journey at 1030am and reached our destination at 1230pm...mentang2 la ramai bawa sports car, semua bantai 150km/j kat highway... termasuklah myvi moqa sekali...huhuhu... anyway...these are the pictures..enjoice!

rayyan with uncle jun's car

rayyan main2 dgn bibik ida

mizot & ayu yang dah 6months pregnant the girls the boys

biasa la kalau ada kamil nih, ada jer dia nyer modal nak kenakan orang..

yang diraikan...

sama cantik sama padan...

nasib baik tak runtuh pelamin orang...

benjo wa?? huhuh,tu la sape suh datang lambat. kepada Koli & Isya : semoga berbahagia hingga ke syurga...selamat mengharungi dunia rumahtangga dan semoga dimurahkan rezeki :D

kepada Fukuians : bila next gathering??

That's what friends are for

yesterday, i was among the last to leave the office...around 730pm.and this morning, at 730am,i'm the first to arrived...it's already 8am but still nobody show up...i'm starting to feel weird...well,orang tak biasa datang awal..hehehe...but i'm pretty sure,we have class today.i double checked the calendar,the schedule...i'm sure today is wednesday....right?

yesterday...i'm not feeling very well...in the inside...emotionally! biasa la,bila kitaran 28hari datang..otak nih suka fikir lebey2, nonsence came annoying me more than usual.makan pon tak lalu..that morning, i ate only a slice of bread+a spoon of mee goreng and in the afternoon,i bought nasi lauk sayur jer although i don't feel hungry and end up eating only 2spoon of nasi...seroiusly,i'm not okay.

then, my MIL sms'ed saying she wanted to take rayyan balik kampung...so,they're gonna be home late and as usual emirr also gonna be late...might as well, make a reason to go somewhere and get something to cheer me up...balik awal2 rumah xde org akan bisa menambahkan lagi sakit jiwa.so i sms'ed my bestfriend...i asked her out.to my surprise she's okay with the idea n off we went to The Gardens lepak kat Sushi Zanmai... again!! i don't think i told her the main reason for me being weird asking her out on weekday like this, but she didn't even make it hard for..she didn't even dig for answers and she just let me blurred out stupid thoughts like what am i gonna name my next child, why do we have to buy things that won't make us happier, why this and that... the very-typical-mysara-type-of-questions... we talked about rayyan and all his little things that he made...it's been almost 2years since i first laid my eyes on his face, but it seems like yesterday...we talk and talk from one topic to another and just laughed ignoring people around us...after that, we went to the borders and had ourselves some education-shopping ... huhuh.. i bought rayyan his first ensyclopedia and a book from baby einstein..and got myself the new moon... literally, all the things we shared for 2and a half hour yesterday makes me better... a loooottt better! she's my savior!

Thanks to you-know-who-you-are

i wanted to talk more about friendship..maybe in other entry as now i have to get ready for my classes today...but,before i go i would like to share this video with all of you who's reading this.. i wanna thank you for your presence touched my life and please know that i'm glad to have to know you!

song : AI - Story, Rascal Flattes-My wish

AI - Story 限られた時の中で どれだけのことができるのだろう 言葉にならないほどの思いを どれだけあなたに伝えられるだろう ずっと閉じ込めてた 胸の痛みを消してくれた 今　私が笑えるのは 一緒に泣いてくれたキミがいるから 一人じゃないから キミが私を守るから 強くなれる　もう何も恐くないよ 時がなだめてく 痛みとともに　流れてく 日の光がやさしく照らしてくれる 説明する言葉も ムリして笑うこともしなくていいから 何かあるなら　いつでも頼ってほしい 疲れた時は　肩を貸すから どんなに強がっても ため息くらいする時もある 孤独じゃ重い扉も ともに立ち上がればまた動き始める 一人じゃないから 私がキミを守るから あなたの笑う顔が見たいと思うから 時がなだめてく 痛みとともに　流れてく 日の光がやさしく照らしてくれる 時に人は傷付き傷付けながら 染まる色はそれぞれ違うけど 自分だけのStory作りながら生きてくの だからずっと、ずっと あきらめないで・・・ 一人じゃないから 私がキミを守るから あなたの笑う顔が見たいと思うから 時がなだめてく 痛みとともに　流れてく 日の光がやさしく照らしてくれる

English translation

I wonder how many things I can do within the limited time My feelings are so strong that I can’t put them into words I wonder how much I can tell you You erased the pain in my heart that I always locked inside And now I can smile because you cried with me Because I’m not alone, because you’re protecting me I can become strong, I’m not afraid of anything anymore Time soothes, it flows with the pain The light of the day gently shines on me The words that explain, you don’t have to force yourself to smile If there is anything you need, I want you to call on me any time When you’re tired, I’ll lend you my shoulder No matter how strong you are, there are times that you will sigh When the loneliness and the heavy door rise together You can begin to move again Because you’re not alone, because I’m protecting you I thought that I’d like to see your smiling face Time soothes, it flows with the pain The light of the day gently shines on you Sometimes, people hurt others while getting hurt Each of the dyed colors are different But I will go on living, while I create my own story So never, ever give up!

Rascal Flatts-My Wish

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,

and each road leads you where you want to go,

and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

and if one door opens to another door closed,

I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,

if it's cold outside,show the world the warmth of your smile,

but more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,

all the ones who love you, in the place you left,

I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,

and you help somebody every chance you get,

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,

and always give more then you take.

But more than anything,

Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you,

is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you,

is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,I

hope you know somebody loves you,

and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.this is my wish

i hope you know somebody loves you

may all your dreams stay big

Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore?how would your world react?

Albert Camus once wrote,

"Blessed are the hearts that can bend. They shall never be broken."

But I wonder.... If there's no breaking, then there's no healing.

And if there's no healing, then there is no learning.

And if there's no learning, then there's no struggle.

But the struggle is a part of life...

So must all hearts be broken ?

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Regret comes in all shapes and sizes.

Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason.

Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.

Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice.

Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future.

Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past,

and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.

But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did -- but, for the things we didn't do.

Things we didn't say that could've save someone that we care about.

Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way.

if there's anything i could do that would make a difference in your life...

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There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment, you must choose your direction.

Will you fight to stay on path?

Will others tell you who you are?

Or will you label yourself?

Will you be haunted by your choice?

Or will you embrace your new path?

Each morning you choose to move forward or simply give up.

There comes a time when every life goes off course.

In this desperate moment who will you be?

Will you let down your defenses, and find solace in someone unexpected?

Will you reach out?

Will you face your greatest fear bravely?

And move forward with faith.

Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

Hisashiburi no Rayyan

~Rayyan is 1year 10months 1week 4days~

Rayyan playing with spoon at Pizza Hut. he didn't seem to like pizza but he loves the mushroom soup... sedap sehingga menjilat sudu...huhuh

this is Rayyan's new toy. a toddler komputer.a present from my MIL.filled with games,songs,math and alphabetical games.but rayyan don't really know how to play the game yet..yang dia tau,tekan sana sini..asalkan ada bunyi... sikit punyer excited dpt komputer sendiri..

tapi dia tau, komputer mommy lagi besh dr yang dia dapat... huhuhuh... ini gambar semalam.. rayyan makan durian.jgn taktau,budak kecik nih hantu durian. sejak umur 6bulan lagi, dia dah merasa makan durian.. bila bg sikit, nak lagi.. skg nih, pantang kalau ada durian kat umh,dia la paling awal mengadap... :D muka seronok dapat makan durian!!. comott! hari ini hari sabtu...nak pegi bekfas, hantar keta gi cuci, lps tu gi singgah 'istana baru' kami... tgk dah siap betulkan tak... grill dah siap order.design sumer makaseru kat en.suami. ptg nih maybe nk gi cari hadiah utk senpai yg akan melangsungkan perkahwinan esok di ulu kinta perak.. esok kami akan ke ipoh! jom sape nak ikut!

Self-appreciation

do you appreciate yourself for anything or something you do? how do you do it? why do we have to do it? i appreciate my hard-days-non-stop-working cheewwahh with shopping. yeah,very typical i know..but i specifically love shoes.i think i can never have enough stock of shoes.i can't see a shoe shop without stopping by or at least make a brief peek to see what they have.i think it is good to do it once in a while...as a token to be better or work harder. betul tak? melancong pon bagus jugak utk menghargai diri sendiri...pendek kata,mcm2 cara boleh buat.pernah tak beli hadiah utk diri sendiri? yang mmg dalam bentuk hadiah? i did! sekali la dgn cik ida tu..pernah dulu,dia beli utk kita, kita beli utk dia...pastu bendanya sama,cuma lain kaler..rasanyer dah 3/4 kali jugak la buat kerja nih...tp seronok woo..nak2 kalau kat jepun, utk wrapping service free...mmg besh laa.hentam minta reben la, kad la...pastu siap tulis ucapan utk diri sendiri sekali.pathetic? i don't think so..i think of it as a way of self-appreciation.for once, just get out of your body and see yourself from the outside.you'll see just how much you should appreciate yourself. last week,it's my pay day.so, i decided to give myself credit for .... well, you name it..heheh..i went to charles and keith because i wanted to try their heels. i bought one that look something like this.( i can't find the exact picture from their website) . it is so comfortable and stable i can even run in it.it's about 4inches high. i love to wear heels to work.ramai tanya kenapa suka pakai kasut tinggi, tak kurang juga yg menunjukkan kerisauan..heheheh..i love heels when i do something that don't involves walking around much.kalu gi keje nih,setakat gi kelas 2kali turun naik jer..xjalan jauh2 pon.plus, i think kalau pakai baju kurung dgn kasut bertumit lebih nmpk anggun...ececehh.. bukan nk kata diri sendiri anggun, tp tgk org lain pon camtu.. suker..lagipun, bila lagi nk merasa pakai kasut tinggi kan? masa masih muda laa..mcm la muda sgt pon.

as for leisure, i prefer flats... paling suka yg mmg flat betul2.like these... i have one red steve madden yg sgt2 suka...sbb dia sgt merah n sgt besh.tp xjumpa la gmbr dia kat tenet.. kalau keluar dgn rayyan especially,xkan nk pakai kasut tumit tinggi.sgt la tak sesuai...nak kejar2 dia satu mall lagi..baik la pakai flats.selamat dan comfort.and of course,kalau dah duduk kat mall tu, mana ada satu jam..mesti berjam2..

this year, i got this handbag from hubby for my birthday. from Charles & Keith too.i love handbags..but it falls to 2nd place in my list.because i'm kind of fussy when it comes to handbag...kalau yg tak suka tu,mmg xpandang la..terperuk dlm almari..byk jugak yg org bg tp tak pernah pakai...hihihi...paling suka coach.kalau boleh nak yg baru tu..tp....no..no..no..byk lg komitmen lain thn ni.kena puasa handbag.lagipon harga handbag mak datukk..gaji berbulan2 boleh habis.tak mau la membazir..ramai org kat luar sana xde duit nk mkn pon.setakat beg,sekali sekala xper laa kalau nak mahal...hehehe..this one down here,i love it to bits...it's been my daily bag to school.very spacious.i can just dump anything and everything inside and still it looks stylish from the outside :) tq, en suami!

so..how do you appreciate yourself?