hepi 11months old today!

"The Face"

picture taken at Bird Park Malaysia Jun'08

The One With Trying To Get Rid Everything On His Head

baby Rayyan deary, you're almost 11months..although you're more than 11months for me.. remember the day when we bold your head? yeah..it's a tough decision but i guess it's the right one to be made.. since you're a baby..no hat fit you best.. almost everything we put on your head won't stay there for long.. even now,u hate it when people put anything on your head.. i don't know why.. and somehow,that's the reason why we botakkan your head (you're trying to get rid of your hair?..huhu) always saw you pulling your hair..scratching your head sampai luka2.. and when there's nothing for u to pull,we feel safer... anyway..that's not the story i wanna rite.. just now i read a story that made me think that i'm blessed..a story that makes me realize that i'm like living in a fairytale...the part when the narrator say,"... and they live happily ever after..." ..yeah..feels like i'm living in a life after that verse actually,it's a story about a mother who had her 1st baby in her tummy for 38weeks and had been given only a day to adore and hold him.. can u imagine that? i know how it feels to wait for someone we love to arrive... i know how it feels to just imagining all the happy moments after his arrival.. to make all the preparations for the little one..and to lay my eyes for the 1st time on the person who shared almost everything we had for 9months... the person, who his heart i carried everywhere i go for that amount of time... and to just lose it in 1 day? i can't even imagine how she's taking it... i hope she's strong.. i have this worries while i'm carrying you,baby... i'm afraid to shop for your stuff too much... i don't wanna put too much hope as i know anything could happen along the way..i tried not to be too excited..although,GOD knows i am really excited!! i waited for the expensive things to buy until you were born.. Although there were some problems during ur birth.. i don't know where all the courages came from..but, all i was thinking was bringing you out from my belly safe and sound... no matter how much pain i have to bare... and know what? it all worth the pain... i don't feel pain when the doctor hand you over to me right after u came out... it was such a miracle.. how i came to meet in person for the 1st time with the cute-little-chubby-guy who lived in me for 9months... it really is a great journey,i must say.. also,there are many couples out there who are wishing to have children of their own,but still keep waiting and trying... as for me,i'm enjoying every single day of my life now having you as you are the cure for me... i'm so thankfull to be given the chance to be a mother to you,to be a wife to your father(the best-est ever),to be all He entitled me to be.. alhamdulillah.. and i faithfully believe that,for all that He takes from us,He'll replace with somehting better.. from what He hasn't given yet,He gaves something better in return.. amin~

I hope you dance

dedicated to my beloved son,Rayyan..I Hope You Dance..=)

Lee Ann WomackI Hope You Dance (2000)

I Hope You Dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,

You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,

May you never take one single breath for granted,

GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,

Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,

Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,

Never settle for the path of least resistance

Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',

Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',

Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,

When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,

Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,

Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,

Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,

Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....

I hope you dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance..

(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along

Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)