Hold the hand of the person whom you love,rather than expecting them to hold yours

finally, the long awaited day is about to arrive... tomorrow we're off to the island. macam2 perasaan ada dlm hati ni.. bercampur aduk.. but, i'm gonna think positive and hope to enjoy every fraction second spend with my beloved-other-half-soul. about the trip;

• 4days 3nights
• air asia(21/5~24/5)
• aonang buri resort
• looking forward to visit phi phi island & hong island

this is my..our very first time leaving rayyan behind. as i mentioned in an entry some time before, i've never spent a night without rayyan who constantly conquering the bed every night.we love it, although we have to squeeze our side so that he'll be comfortable to do whatever action he wishes to do in his sleep... :D it's cute actually.i guess i've to start teaching him to sleep on his own after we complete our mission on weaning... i planned to teach him sleeping on his own bed when we moved in to our new home, but i guess that's gonna be another 5~7months time. is it to late by that time? hmm...dilemma.mommy better start doing some study on that... i know i'm gonna miss rayyan so badly when i'm away although i have my emirr by my side. am i gonna miss him the same way i missed emirr when we were separated for months 2years before? or is it worse? 4days 3nights is just nice i guess...but who knows. rindu meroyan kat rayyan lagi dahsyat drpd rindu kat bapaknyer dulu? well, it's an experience.plus, suddenly something comes up last week that need me to go away for 5days 4night to kedah next month.another trip without rayyan and this time i'm sure akan lebih dahsyat gila rindu as both rayyan n emirr is not there.makkk!! daijoubu ka naa?? dulu masa baru2 masuk sekolah asrama, rindu kat mak..sampai tepon mak sambil nangis2.not just that, sambil beratur kat dewan makan pegang tray nk amek food pon bole nk meleleh air mata terkenangkan kalu kat rumah xyah pon beratur2 nak makan... sayu je hati.tp xde la sampai nk lari dr asrama,cuma rasa kekurangan sesuatu.masa duduk satu bumbung dgn mak,xheran pon nk rindu2..xterfikir pon pasal akan rindu nk balik rumah.sebab mmg dulu azam nk masuk asrama tu kuat sangat... bila dah dapat masuk,amek kau! baru tau mcm mana beshnyer ada mak n akak2 kat umh. tapi, kalau bukan sekarang bila lagi nk lalui.satu hari nanti kena juga duduk berjauhan.samada rela atau tak rela.rayyan pon kena belajar berjauhan dr mommy n daddy. harap2 rayyan ok jer... mak n bapaknyer ni nnti pandai2 la nk cover rindu2an tu...hehehe.xkan nk nangis2 kat tepon jugak kot.kihkihkih.agaknyer macam ni la perasaan mak2 kita bila kita nak pergi jauh dari derang. mesti berat hati, tp terpaksa relakan untuk beri yg terbaik buat anak2 mereka.atuk kat kampung tu, masa awal2 mommy masuk mrsm dia demam seminggu. masa lps masuk um n gi jepun pon camtu..mesti demam2 rindu..hihihih..syiann atuk.

why we didn't bring along rayyan;

1. we're going to a place which mostly consist with activities that need to ride boats for hours..so,i don't think it is safe to bring a baby along.
2. it's an unfamiliar place for us..food,language and surroundings.so,it might be a trouble in case of any emergencies.
3. rayyan has yet to learn how to swim...so,it's either rayyan swimming with daddy(and mommy just looking from the shore) or mommy swimming with daddy without having to worry about rayyan's safety
4. mommy n daddy want to spend more quality time together... reminiscing about our good old days,perhaps.. :)
5. because it's time to wean ... kali ni tak boleh mengelat lagi.

persiapan utk honeymoon esok dah buat sikit2. kami laki bini mmg suka buat keje last minute.sampai arinih nk cari digital camera underwater case tak dapat2.kalau nk tunggu post tak sempat.tu laa,buat keje lambat2.maybe guna instant underwater camera tu jer.tp xbesh laa..xdpt snap2 gmbr nemo byk2...tp drpd takde,lg xbesh.baju pulak, lom packing lagi.smlm mommy beli long dress,sajer ngada2...i bought 1 tunic n 1long dress from promod...owhh,sgt suker baju2 kat promod... mostly my taste! barang yg nk dibawa dah di'shorlisted'kan...kali nih xboleh lupa sunblock...kalau tak, ada yg balik nnti kulit belang2 pulak.mlm nih nk shopping sikit food and snacks... tu jer kot.kami nak gi sempoi2 jer.tak nak loaded sgt dgn luggage.ala2 travelling gitu.bukan nk gi shopping(yeke??).. azam saya utk trip kali nih;

1. nak jumpa ikan comel2
2. nak enjoy masa berdua2an dgn en suami
3. nak amek gmbr byk2
4. nak lepak tepi pantai puas2
5. nak berangan

kawan2, doakan kami semua selamat yer..selamat pergi dan selamat pulang dalam keadaan sihat dan sejahtera hendaknya. rayan pulak, semoga selamat 4hari tanpa mommy n daddy(vice versa..heheh)..

someone once told me;

~ 恋は冷める、愛は続く ~

(koi wa sameru, ai wa tsuzuku)

meaning,love cools down, love continues

both 恋(koi) and 愛(ai) has the same meaning = love

menurut kamus Kenkyusha Lighthouse japanese-english dictionary,

koi=tender feelings,be in love with~

ai=love for a person,or something,mild and eternal affection

dalam konteks kata2 ini melalui pemahaman saya(kalau ada org lain yg paham lain,do let me know)koi is what we usually feel in the beginning of loving someone... mcm bila kita ada crush kat someone...masa awal2 tu kan berbunga2..semuanya indah.sampai tersengih2 manjang...

and ai is the one that keep the love continuing even if the feelings that we felt in the beginning is not there anymore... maksudnyer lebih kepada kasih sayang,cinta sejati.walaupon takde la nk berbunga2 tiap2 hari, walaupon kadang2 org yg kita sayang tu buat kita marah..kita masih tetapp sayang kat orang tu despite all the things he do or done.

tp saya tak berapa setuju sikit dgn penyataan tu..for me, we can keep the koi if we want and if we know how... maybe la tak sama dgn perasaan tergedik2 masa bercinta awal2 dulu.tp at least hati nih masih berdebar bila tgk, kaji every inch of his face...masih tak sabar tunggu dia balik rumah, makan kena sama2, kalau tak sms sehari rasa xlengkap, waking up every morning being greeted with the same affection of the 3 magical words of " I LOVE YOU" and so on.sama juga saya tak suka org2 yg bila dah kawen, dah tak macam org bercinta,bercouple...in contrast, suka sgt tgk kalau ada couple2 yg dah tua2 pon masih jalan pegang2 tangan, ketawa sama2 bila bercerita...lagi romantik compare to orang2 muda...

pendapat dr seorang teman;

koi & ai is like infatuation & love

infatuation=koi, love=ai

u can fall in love(koi ni ochiru) but then u can also fall out of love (koi wa sameru)

apapun,

semoga cinta kita2 akan sentiasa kekal mcm perasaan bercinta dulu2

sometimes we have to get that koi back to make the ai stays...

:D