Mai lucky day!

first and foremost, syukurrr sangat2! harini banyak benda best berlaku...

plan harini mmg nk lunch dgn mai bestfriend kat midvalley...mula2 pergi MAC beli makeup mama pesan and then gi pusing2 zara..terberkenan kat satu bag..mmg tgh mencari beg, sbb skg dok lenjan beg coach hotpink hadiah besday awal tahun aritu..syian beg tu, semua benda masuk..bento masuk, aritu pergi jusco ari sabtu kena bayar plastik beg, xnak bayar punya pasal mayonaise n timun pon masuk sudah dlm beg tu..hehehe.. bila cari2 beg kat charles n keith, sume pesen kotak2..kat nine west pon camtu..agaknya sekarang pesen org pakai beg empat segi mcm zaman dedulu tu balik..tp xberkenan la pulak..xreti nk gayakan... jadi hati dah terpikat kat beg zara tu..pastu, masa tunggu salesgirl gi amek stock baru, pusing2 jumpa baju kesayangan yg beli kat jepun tu balik... yg beli dulu dah kecut mai maid basuh masuk mesin..bila tgk harga lagi murah dr jepun, gatal la nk beli..pastu ada satu lagi blouse kaler hijau yg best, capai gak bawa masuk fitting room..last2 beli dua2 n the bag!! hehehe... kata kat diri sendiri,"xpe, nk melawa depan suami yg nak balik lusa nnti" heheheh...

we had lunch at gardens food court..i ate korean food n bai ate taiwanese food

later had desert at delicious

her choc brownies with ice cream...sedappp!!

mine berrilicious pavlova..i'm not a sweet tooth so rasa manis ya amatt!!

sedap lagi alexis nya meringue

lps solat tu, kami nak ke delicious makan kek..on the way tu ada booth canon banyak kat tgh2 center court tu.. igt nk usha dslr pstu ternampak org beratur utk lucky draw..dengan xtau apa2, saya pon masuk la line sambil tarik member suruh join sekali..member dah takut2 sbb maybe perlukan resit ke apa nk join lucky draw tu..i said, sume org xde bawa apa2 pon..jom je laa..dia pon dgn malu2 join beratur kat belakang..mmg selama ni, bole kira dgn jari berapa kali menang lucky draw..rasanya 3kali je kot..tp kata kat member, 'mana tau rezeki Allah nk bg hari jumaat ni'..waktu nak amek bola dlm kotak tu mmg xpk apa2, sekali bawa keluar tgk kaler oren...igtkan sume kaler oren rupanya, yg kaler oren tu la yg bertuah...n that was the last one!! how lucky! pastu kena jawab soalan pulak.seb baik soalan tu jawapan dah ada depan mata..n saya mmg pengguna dslr canon..so, tau la sket2 pasal canon... rupa2nya kami menang kamera digital... syiok!! pastu,kalau like fb canon on the spot, dpt hadiah cenderamata lagi... lps tu, ada amoi offer main game utk dpt hadiah.. game nya ialah tendang bola masukkan dlm lubang..dok cakap kat amoi tu arini pakai skirt..camne la nk menendang, dia suruh member..member pulak pakai high heel..hehehe..so, tawakkal je la sepak bola tu ayu2 sket...cubaan ada 5x.. dan kali ke3 masuk lubang!! no.1 lak tu..dapat la hadiah beg pulak..syiokknya!!

tu yg nak share kat blog arini..kenangan maniss tahun ini..insyaAllah akan ada baaaannyyaakkk lagi kenangan manis yg akan dtg..

i'm thinking about selling this camera as we just bought our new sony digicame 2months back... anyone interested? hehehe

complete with canon casing

and 2years warranty

as for the kids,alhamdulillah, dua2 dah sehat.last sunday rifqi admitted to columbia asia puchong hospital sbb rota virus...skg dah ok...punya la mak dia kurang pengetahuan,xtau pon apa benda rota virus tu..doc cerita baru tau..n ni la first time masuk hosp swasta.. macam sama je ngan kerajaan cuma bilik best la kan...tp xbest gak sbb xde tingkap..xtau kat luar tu malam ke siang..huhuh..

makan cupcake tokma bagi comot2..hingus meleleh..uishh!

at jusco shopping buku dgn mama..buat 'peace' sign pandai..bila suruh senyum, menganga pulak!

rayyan pon nampak seronok sbb hari ni first time pergi lawatan dgn teacher ke aquaria n bird park.. mai maid dah risau dia xsampai2 rumah pkl 12tgh hari td..mama pulak lupa nk bitau kata dia gi lawatan..adesss..gomen ye embah!!

masa melawat adek kat hosp..1st time pakai mask..mula2 xnak tp bila dah pakai mcm2 lawak dia buat.. bagus2,practice siap2 sebelum gi nihon :)

lusa abang sayang nk balik msia... next week nk pergi bercuti n dating sepuas2nya sebelum papa balik jepun semula..anak2 pon dah xsabar nk peluk ayah depa..rayyan asek tanya,'kenapa papa lambat?' maybe dia fikir mama dah balik tp papa xbalik2 lagi dr work...heheheh..syian anak2 mama!

Rindu itu nikmat

~  Rayyan is 4years 1month 3weeks old  ~

~  Rifqi is 1year 4months 2weeks 3days old  ~

browsing over their pictures... i'm missing them

miss their laugh, their smile, their talk and everything

i leave them knowing that God will take a good care of them

170days to go~

Trivia of Rayyan & Aydeen

maybe its just a coincidence...


 "Rayyan" is the name of a gate(Bab ur Rayyan) of Paradise which will be the enterance to the paradise for the people who practiced fasting . it also means a place where you get water..

“Sesungguhnya dalam syurga terdapat satu pintu yang dikenali dengan ar-Rayyan di mana yang berhak memasukinya hanya orang yang berpuasa. Apabila selesai masuk nescaya ditutupnya. (Hadis Imam Bukhari, Muslim dan Ahmad daripada sahabat Sahal bin Sa’d).”


and "Aydeen" means kembali kepada fitrah..as in lagu raya,'minal aidin wal faizin'.. 'minal aidin' means kembali kepada fitrah..

"dari segi bahasa, minal ‘aidin bererti “(semoga kita) termasuk orang-orang yang kembali.” Kembali di sini adalah kembali kepada fitrah, yakni “asal kejadian”, atau “kesucian”, atau “agama yang benar”.

Setelah mengasah dan mengasuh jiwa – iaitu berpuasa – selama satu bulan, diharapkan setiap Muslim dapat kembali ke asal kejadiannya dn menemukan “jati dirinya”, iaitu kembali suci sebagai mana ketika ia baru dilahirkan serta kembali mengamalkan ajaran agama yang benar. Ini semua menuntut keserasian hubungan, kerana – menurut Rasulullah – al-aidin al-mu’amalah, yakni keserasian dengan sesama manusia, lingkungan, dan alam." -google-

wallahualam...

Rifqi the Rider..err Spider?

rifqi really loves rides...unlike rayyan who refuse to ride any of this thing dulu2..or if he does,always rides half way..don't know why..maybe he's afraid of the thing moving n making sounds... but rifqi loves it! pantang nampak kenderaan2 comel tu,mesti tunjuk2 nak naik...kalau dah naik,xnak turun!

pegang stering kuat2

naik bas sekolah pulak

abg rayyan jadi passenger

mighty mouse pulak..again,abg rayyan passenger jer

main kat playground dlm alamanda

budak ini sangat lincah ke sana ke mari

xlarat mama dia kejar,dia dah sampai atas nun

si abang pon xmenyempat2..sampai tergolek adek dibuatnya

aksi spiderman in action..

seriously mama cuak sbb rasa cam adek baru je pandai jalan dah boleh memanjat2 camni..

lps main, shopping pulak

main dgn yiaw pulak

ok abis dah cerita...

selamat berpuasa...apa juadah berbuka harini?

:))

Mai kids are mai soul

mai kids are mai soul...they are the main reason i'm smiling everyday, the one that keeps me strong and grow. the ones that teach me patience and positivity...they are my addiction!!

setiap kali berpisah dgn anak2, sekalipun hanya untuk sejam dua, i'll hug them very tight and kiss them a lot... i wouldn't dare walk out the door without hugging or kissing them even knowing they'll cry seeing me in nice dresses bertudung siap,but leaving them behind... leaving them quietly just for the sake of not wanting to make them cry is never an option. i mean, i'd rather see them crying knowing me leaving rather than leaving them quietly...afraid that, that's gonna be my last hug.you never know right?

i understand, we especially mothers are very attached to our kids. it is almost hard to leave them even for an hour. my kids especially rifqi mmg xboleh berenggang.kalau ada kat rumah mmg senantiasa nak melepek sebelah mama...kalau letak sebelah pon xmau..nak kena berdukung juga.tu yg sampai kes, mama masuk toilet dia nak teman jugak.

see his make-pity faces sambil peluk kaki xbg lepas.....
mmg cair la hati mama dia..huhuhu

don't get me wrong.it doesn't mean that i don't like my kids being this way...to be frank, i'm quite relief they can't resist me they way they are irresistable to me. that way i know that they need me, love me :) and i don't mind having to hold them while cooking just to stop them from crying, i don't mind giving them the attention they want as much as i can give... i just can't stand seeing them sad or dissapointed..

sometimes distance is good. an hour distance, a day distance is a nice therapy i think. it makes us appreciate our children more.even when we're at work, we can't help but to think about our kids at home/nursery..are they having a good day, are they eating well, what are they watching on tv, do they coop well with their sibblings/friends...are they ok? that's the credit of being a full-time-housewives(FTHW) i guess...they got to see their kids grow every minute, shape their kids the way they want without bad influences from outsiders, and the kids are like their Masters/PhD thesis... there's no bigger success that seeing your kids grow being a good caliphs,kan? so, to mothers who are a FTHW, jgn ambik pusing kata2 yang mengecil2kan anda.walaupon anda pemegang diploma,degree,master hatta phd sekalipon, pahala yg anda kumpul kerana menjadi ibu sepenuh masa kepada anak2 dan isteri sepenuh masa yang menjaga kebajikan dirumah insyaAllah jaaauuuhhh lebih hebat drpd saya yg bekerja.bayangkan,sekali kita pandang anak2 dengan penuh kasih sayang, itu sudah pahala, belum lagi kita yg suapkan makannya, memakaikan pakaiannya, mengajar mereka secara langsung atau tidak, menidurkan mereka, memberi kata2 perangsang kepada mereka etc.kadang2 pernah juga tahu yg ibu2 sepenuh masa ni susah hati kerana tidak dpt membantu ibu bapa yg membesarkan mereka kerana tiada pendapatan tetap setiap bulan.mengambil kata2 seorang tok guru yg saya hormati, walaupon ibu2 sepenuh masa ini tidak bekerja dan tiada pendapatan untuk membantu ibu bapa mereka sendiri, ingatlah bahawa ketaatan anda kepada suami anda dan usaha anda menjadi ibu kepada anak2 anda ada bahagian(pahala) kepada ibu bapa anda.pahala itu mengalir kepada mereka dengan syarat kita menjaga hak2 kita sebagai isteri spt menunaikan solat, menutup aurat dan melaksanakan kewajipan yg wajib lainnya dan meninggalkan laranganNya.insyaAllah...Allah kan Maha Kaya! (eh, macam lari topik pulak..heheh)

anyway, i'm leaving rayyan n rifqi at my in laws just now after celebrating rayyan's birthday..my mom needs my maid's help so, the kids have to tag along...God, it was hard to let go! bukan lama pon,xsampai 24hours...but the feelings of not being able to sleep with them, hug them at night, wake up to their beautiful smiles and all makes it hard to let go... rayyan salam, hug me, kiss me at both my cheeks n forehead(tiru papa dia..huhuh), but still it's not enough..hug rifqi sooooo tight,kiss him hard but still, it's not enough...Subhanallah, ini baru dugaan kecil.

when i told my friends, families about me going away for 6months leaving the kids behind, some are being so sceptical. i know there's a lot to go through but at the same time, it's not impossible. i'm seriously trying to be very positive about this matter from the 1st time i took the decision to go. everyday i keep telling myself that i'm gonna be okay. i'm hoping others wouldn't pity me but please pray for me...pray that Allah would grant me the strength, the love, the sanity to survive. Please stop worrying about me..insyaAllah, i'll be fine... i know i'll be fine... and to friends who keep me strong, trust in me and tune me into being positive, may Allah repay your kindness! i hope nothing more than your doa'.

ramadhan is approaching... bulan yang mulia untuk meminta kepadaNya...bulan untuk menggandakan pahala...bulan yg penuh rahmah. semoga Allah beri kekuatan, hidayah, kasih sayang, dan pertolonganNya kepada kita semua....

Rifqi starts walking independently

rayyan started walking at the age of 1year old..that time we're in japan for a short stay... i still remember vividly how he walked n fell over n over again n never complain or stop trying... he's one brave boy!

now, rifqi has started walking himself...he's now 1year 2months..i was kinda worry if i'm not given the chance to witness his first step before september... i think it'll keep me at ease to go only after i watch all of his early years achievements n being among the first to see him making his first steps is one of my dream.alhamdulillah, Allah granted my wish. i'm too excited about it!! seriously... i took him to the mall to experience the escalator, gave him the freedom to go anywhere in the wide space in his tiny shoes(well,actually it was rayyan's..hehehe..waris kat adik), took him to the playground and Subhanallah he's just as excited as i am! sweating all over his body...

so this is the video i took yesterday after coming back from work...rifqi's trying to open the gate and after this video was taken badan dia tersepit in between it..heheheh..tp buat muka cool je xnanges pon!

this is him walking and singing!! bukan main bahagia dia dapat jalan2 atas jalan

alhamdulillah!

omedetou rifqi aydeen!!

mmmuuaahh

:))

Weaning off Aydeen

~Rayyan Adam is 3years 10months handsome~

~Rifqi Aydeen is 1year 1month 2weeks cute~

Alhamdulillah... Rifqi has weaned off completely genap usia setahun..dah lebih sebulan cerai susu.seriously, it's a tough desicion to wean him off this early..might due to me over worrying about things..rayyan weaned off from fully breastfeeding at the age of 1year 8months...rifqi only manage to fully breastfeed for 1year..alhamdulillah, he's one easy baby to handle..no need any tricks to stop him..rayyan dulu kena letak vicks laa...tipu2 la..rifqi nih slumber tak kesah...sumbat formula milk pon dia hentam je minum takde tolak2...he made it all so easy for me..sangat2 syukur la rifqi nih dari lahir sampai sekarang senang je nak manage everything...the reason of weaning him 8months earlier than rayyan and a year earlier than plan was because i'm going away for 6months...didn't know it would be this easy to wean him or else i would start later..

and inspite that, he's very...very..attach to me.. pantang nampak kelibat mama dia, terus menerpa...you should see how he crawls with the speed of running...seriously, kalau ada pertandingan merangkak i think he'll win 1st prize :) i love the fact that he's close to me..rayyan dah macam menjauhkan diri sikit bg space kat adik dia..kadang2 dia mengalah kalau mama tgh peluk dia, adik dia menyelit masuk...tp rayyan big boy kan? nnti ada adik lain lagi(ecehh), rifqi pulak kena mengalah...apapun, semua anak2 mama sayang sama rata jer..bila anak2 dah rapat mcm tu, is it gonna make it easier for you to leave? i can't..don't want to..refuse to think about it just yet..because i'm scared of the fact that i'm gonna be half insane there thinking about them...oh, boleh kah saya concentrate on study.. i'm gonna miss their laugh, their smell, their sounds, their eveything!! bawa baju depa masuk dlm beg sekali mmg kompem...kalau la bole bawa sekali masuk beg ... it's a big challenge for me!

masih lagi hisap jari to soothe himself

tayang gigi atas..ada 4batang

Rifqi's 1st camera...

dapat kat baju ok la..besar sket mama beli yg mainan pulak..hik3

tayang gigi bawah pulak..ada 2batang 

cubaan untuk menanggalkan topi

...and the clock is ticking

Wordless Wednesday

Mandi air hujan

 lamanyer xmenulis... keje dah mula serius..eceh, sblm nih xberapa serius laa..budak2 xde kan..kelas dah mula...balik semula mengajar mengeja dan mengira mcm kanak2 tadika.. saya dah naik pangkat( xde naik pon..saje nk poyo) jadi ketua blok..maknanya saya tak jadi cikgu kelas..tp saya kena manage sekali 2kelas punya jadual dan budak2..hehehe... kerja dah masuk tahun ke-4, mmg patut pon dapat keje susah sket kan..sampai bila nk keje takuk lama je..tp saya cuba yang terbaik...

borang2 utk training hampir siap.tadi pergi medical check-up, x-ray, blood pressure, urine-test, blood test bagai... masa amek darah, tangan sebelah xcukup..darah xkuar sangat..doc cucuk sebelah tangan lagi..fenomena biasa bg saya..dulu pernah pitam lps amek darah..pastu, waktu check sugar level..doc kata bacaannya agak tinggi..pg tu saya sarapan roti+gula n air milo..malam sebelumnya encik suami masakkan ayam madu..sedapp sangat..huhuhu..lps nih kena jaga makan & lebih byk bersenam la nampaknyer.. arituh baru mula jogging tapi tipu2 sket..lari kejap, jalan banyak..hehehe...

the boys

rayyan semakin petah bercakap...there's so many moments when he do something, say something that made our days...if only i can record each and every moment to look back... i just post some on fb..can we track back from there? huhuhu...

this is one of the best moment
it was raining around 5pm that day... i was at home.. rayyan was getting boring being in the house all day.. so, i took out their mini pool..tadah air hujan..rayyan was so excited..he's never seen i did that before..selalu tadah air paip kan...when the rain stopped it was around 6pm..

rayyan got out and check on the water level...

then i heard him said clearly," Terima kasih hujan!!" dengan sengih berjelaa..

ok,sedia untuk berendam!!

jom adek! 

mula2 mama xnak masukkan adek..tp bila adek buat muka seposen, mama masukkan adek join abang rayyan ...

seronok la abang rayyan

jirus menjirus

ajar rifqi main fish

tolong jirus rifqi

dua2 xnak naik walaupon air hujan tu sejuk mak aih..

dah lama xbawa budak2 nih pergi mandi pool...rayyan asyik sibuk nk lompat air..hehehe..

seronoknyer bila anak2 dah pandai buat macam2...especially rayyan laa..bila dukung rasa mcm dah xlarat.tp masih lagi mama dukung jugak kadang2... rayyan mmg pandai memuji...antara ayat2 pujian yang selalu dia cakap;

- wahhh...cantiknyer..bestnyer..

(pernah juga dengar dia cakap "best giller", kids are good at immitating us,right?)

-mama/papa HEBAT laa! (xtau la tang mana yg hebat sbb dia puji even buat benda simple je..perkataan hebat tu mmg sound like a big deal laa)

-rifqi budak baik kan?(bila nk something from rifqi)

bila pandang muka rayyan mcm xsangka je dia dah besar...almost 4years old.. and one of his biggest achievement is staying diaperless in less than 2weeks training... the best part is, masa training siang, malam pon dia xpakai pampers and baru terlajak satu kali jer... lps tu mmg selamat dah... one thing i learned is that we parents must continously puji anak2...even the simplest, small deeds they do..do say thank you for everything they do for you..(sampai kat hujan pon dia kata terima kasih)... kalau anak2 buat silap, jgn besar2kan... tp bila dia buat baik, raikan!

:)