The Beginning of the story

*banyaknya habuk..karat pon ada*

lamanya x menulis...cliche la nk kata xde masa, padahal duduk rumah je.. ingatkan bila dah jadi surirumah sepenuh masa(FTHW) ni, banyak masa boleh menggodeh belog..tp sangkaanku silap belaka... makin malass la pulak.. biasanya bila nk mengadap blog ni, hati kena tenang, idea bergelimpangan n xde orang kacau(paling penting!).. sbb tu dulu2, byk update blog kat opis..oppss! hehehe... bila dah duduk rumh bertiga dengan 2ashkar malaya xcukup umur ni, tangan rasa tersekat2 menaip, idea dtg on off..tu yg malas..alternatifnya, banyak melayan instagram.. skg ni mmg addicted dgn instagram..fb pon dah kureng..sbb instagram senang..boleh 2dlm 1.. oleh sbb dr azali mmg xpandai xlayan twitter, makanya skg ni life live update byk tertumpu kat IG.. kawan2 yg nk tau perkembangan boleh la follow kat IG yer.. id 'mysara' like always ;)

skg nih, my heroes tiga2 still sleeping soundly while yours truly can't sleep, blame IG n Pinterest! huhuhu.. tido pkl 12lebey, bgn balik utk sahur pkl 230am, subuh pkl 315am n godeh2 printer..bila lompat atas katil, mata cerah je... nih yg dok ngadap lappy pink... rasanya macam dah lama xcerita santai kat sini.. asek2 ngelat letak gmbr (kira update jugak la tu..huhu).. kali ni nak membebel panjang la pulak.. yer, insyaAllah akan jadi panjang... *alert!*

nak cerita baaaaanyyyaakkkk benda..kalau nk letak gambar, sampai ke sudah la jawabnya..kalau ada kesempatan mmg nk retrieve balik kenangan2 indah yg dah berlalu dalam sebulan ni..maklumlah, bermula hidup baru, suasana baru, job title baru! proudly calling myself FTHW.. yang masih terkedek2 nk set up jadual harian... skg nih, honestly mmg xde jadual..main hentam ikut suka hati nk buat apa... maklumlah, dah lama xjadi surirumah sepenuh masa. nak membiasakan diri tu mcam amek banyak masa. dulu masa kerja berangan nak buat macam2 bila dah duk rumah 24jam...tp lagi tak produktif ada laa..mungkin buat masa ni kot.. banyak la sebab-musababnya *justifikasi diri bagi sedap hati* ehehehe

??  eh xstart lagi masuk isi kandungan..baru muqaddimah dah 3perenggan..sape ajar buat karangan ni..uish2..

tak tau nk start cerita dari mana... sbnrnya tak tau nk cerita secerah mana...hahaha..boleh tak? skg nih suka perkataan pencerahan..bila sebut pon dah terasa 'cerah'.. positif sungguh aura perkataan ni..

apa kata kita tukar pattern penulisan kepada bentuk menjawab soalan..nih berdasarkan soalan2 yg selalu kami terima (macam hotline!)

1. kenapa pindah jepun?

kenapa yer? hmm... sebenarnya, me & emir dah lama menyimpan hasrat nk datang balik jepun.raise our family here,maybe for few years...

2. kenapa?

sbb ngada2! muehehe..tu pon ye jugak kot....

year 2010 :
i guess everything started in 2010 lagi.. dulu mula2 emir apply nk sambung belajar, alhamdulillah dapat tempat di nagaoka university n dpt sensei mmg best, cumanya nasib xmenyebelahi, xdpt scholarship.... bila emir tak dapat, kami pon pasrah la.. xlama lps tu, dlm tahun yg sama, mai dan 2org lagi kawan ofis disuruh pergi kursus selama 6bulan di urawa,japan. mmg mai nk sangat pergi tahun sebelum tu, tp masa tu tgh pregnant rifqi..so, bila offer tu sampai lagi sekali, dah tawar hati nk pergi sbb ada baby..masa dpt offer tu rifqi baru 7~8bulan camtu..antara kami bertiga, salah seorang diWAJIBkan pergi..boss mmg xde kawtim. memikirkan situasi 2 lagi sahabat yg juga ada alasan masing2..i offered myself.. kursus bermula bulan 9,2011..by that umur rifqi 1thn stgh..umur 1thn 2bulan dah berhenti full-breastfeed sbb nk ajar dia minum susu biasa..mmg sedey sgt sbb xsampai 2tahun..mungkin bukan rezeki adik. tp rifqi sangat cooperative n very easy to hanlde.. dia terima je any changes we made.

SEPT2011~MAC 2012 :
and so i flew to japan sept 2011~ mac 2012... sebelum pergi, i can't remember why emir too was suddenly searching for jobs in japan. mmg kitorang ni mmg sejak azali tak bley long-distance relationship... ngada2 kan?! sejak dr zaman single, sampai la dah beranak-pinak ni, kemana2 mesti nk berkepit. imagine nk duduk jauh2 berbulan2? and so, he searched n rezeki dia, senang je dpt keje..ulang-alik naik flight for interviews n akhirnya confirm. tarikh masuk kerja pulak 2weeks lewat dpd tarikh i started my course. i flew 13th sept, while he left for japan on 26th sept... mmg just nice!! eventhough, jarak antara urawa n toyama is like 500km++, we feel secured being in the same country..hahaha..bukannya jumpa selalu pon, sebulan sekali je..tambang train mahai!!

APRIL :
after i finished my course, mac 2012... mmg niat dihati nk sambung belajar dah lama...tapi inisiatif kureng.. bila dah balik msia, kepala pk nk dtg jepun balik je..tp kena tunggu lps majlis kawen brother in law dulu..aih, lamanya rasa kena tunggu..mac~jun..4bulan jugak tu..pertengahan mac, dapat tahu ttg offer scholarship dr monbusyo(kerajaan jepun).. mmg niat nk cuba je apply,  but i spent most time searching for supervisor.. xsangka pulak kalau penjawat kerajaan process nya lain ( tu la xbaca syarat betul2)...leceh & byk pulak simpang2 nk kena lalu..itu pon tau last2 minute dpd ofismate yg baik hati..siap tolong bg contoh isi borang sume..alhamdulillah, Allah dtgkan pertolongan..mmg masa tu dah nk give up, sbb mmg diri ini jenis yg malas n menyampah isi borang..rasanya masa tu 4hari to dateline.tp emir n my dear kak niza, yakinkan utk cuba juga apply..and so i made peace anta je la mana yg mampu...dan dari situ bermula la perjalanan yg baru..iaitu meneruskan perjuangan peng'apply'an... :)

MAY :
tgh2 bulan mei tu seb baik emir balik msia seminggu,kalau tak mmg meroyan gak kot..dpt la jalan2 sampai ke cherating... best!!

JUN :
selesai sahaja majlis resepsi pada 16hb, pada 18 jun kami sekeluarga berangkat ke jepun. ditemani mak mertua n maklong suami.. seronok bukan main lagi adam n aydeen.. maklumlah, cita2 nk dtg jepun dgn papa dah tercapai..rifqi's 1st flight... it was a pleasant journey with lotsa hopes!

JULY:
balik malaysia for a week.. on few important matters.. tukar status visa, interview & top up bekalan makanan nk puasa+raya..hehehe don't you just feel grateful for having air asia? even japanese pon ramai dah kenal malaysia thru air asia..sampai depa pon dah ada LCC(cuma xde 'T' je kat blkg) hehehe

and soon in AUGUST :

we're having a major change too,isnyaAllah.. will tell about it when it happens ( maybe a few days, weeks after it happens..eheheh)


you see...

life seems to be so much fun this way. during school days, semua jalan macam dah diatur, meaning kita dah boleh agak ke mana arah kita nk tuju...and we struggled for that, for what we have in mind. but after that.. lps masuk alam pekerjaan, at one point of mai life..i felt frozen, kalau diibaratkan macam graf, hidup rasa macam garisan mendatar... kerja la sampai bebila n that's it!of course that doesn't deny my passion in teaching...i enjoy seeing my students growth..but somehow, something is missing... bila mula tukar arah kompas, hidup rasa lebih hidup... walaupun skg nih dok kat rumah, layan anak2 dan suami.. rasa waku2(tertunggu2) what comes next!

yes.. everyday i wonder, 'what comes next'

kadang2 terfikir gak pasal baby..hehehe..rindu nk bau wangi minyak yu yi cap limau..kadang2 saje je sapu kat aydeen bg bau baby sket..hehehe.. tp semua tu ku serahkan pada Dia :))


*lerr, 2je soalannya?* hihihi

Mai heart & soul

semoga Allah merahmati dan melindungi perjalanan kami

Monbukagakusho Exam

alhamdulillah, telah selamat menduduki peperiksaan monbukagakusho 2minggu yang lalu.mmg agak kalut nk amek exam ni, maklumlah dah lama xmenduduki exam english..japanese tu boleh la cari buku rujukan melambak kat ofis ni(tp cxukup masa pulak nk mentelaah).. that's why i went to the univ library to borrow some english revision books preferably IELTS or TOEIC books..but sadly, most books look like they are on the shelf for hundred years... i manage to find 2books n to my surprise i can borrow it for 3months.clearly i had not been to any library for like hundred years too as the last time i remember myself borrowing books were for only 2weeks or 1month tops..3months? i might forget where i put them..hehehe

so, my intention of writing this was to give a brief idea about the monbukagakusho exam for postgraduate students applying for monbukagakusho scholarship.i don't know about others, but as soon as i find out i'm accepted to sit for the exam, i search for kakomon(previous years exam papers).. i hope someone out there, is kind enough to leave some hint or tell me what kind of questions are gonna come out...experience from anyone..and lucky enough, i found a link that enable us to download the previous exam papers but sadly the latest was 2010.. well, good enough.better than nothing right?  you can get it from here. it really helps but the format for japanese paper this year(2012) differs from the 2010.. it's more like the 2008 Qs. for english, i'm really bad at finding the grammar mistake questions.everything seems to be OK..i should study more on that ..hehehe

candidates waiting to register

anyway, hope this helps for those who's taking the monbukagakusho exam in next coming years.. of course there are possibilities that they might change the format..but like i said earlier, this is better than nothing...

wish you all the best of luck!!

Ittekimasu(Malaysia)...Tadaima(Japan)!

~Rayyan Adam is 4years 1month 2weeks old~

~Rifqi Aydeen is 1year 4months 2weeks old~

12.09.2011(Monday) 10:00pm

berpeluk sakan dgn anak2..

the 4 of us

13.09.2011(Tuesday) around 4:00am

sunrise..

subhanallah..what a view!

lautan awan..

total distance around 5841km

japan from bird's view...sawah sana sini

natsukashii

mai room..very cozy! mcm bilik hotel..towel,tea,syampoo n body shower sudah tersedia

terus mencari wifi n webcam with the kids..

rayyan onichan :)

rifqi kun :)

watching them play together

senyuman manis dr adek rifqi

mai 1st dinner..

ptg tadi sempat jalan kaki temankan kawan pergi aeon(dulu namanya saty).shopping sket brg2 keperluan.masa pergi, tersesat sikit..hehehe..skg nih musim panas mmg mencabar berjalan kaki..plus, dah lama tak berjalan kaki jauh2.td cuba nk tido tp asyik terjaga2...hopefully malam nih dpt lelap dgn lena..esok ada opening ceremony n placement test...oral test pon ada katanya...

semoga dipermudahkan urusan pada hari esok

not bad for a 1st day!

Briefing session

i'll be attending a briefing session about my long-course programme at the Japan Foundation KL from 2pm until 7pm today. JFKL HQ is next to the midvalley megamall.. maybe i can do some window shopping...heheh..sempat lagi! owh, yeah..yesterday PM just annoounced that gov servants are gonna get half-month salary bonus...alhamdulillahh...syukur rezeki Allah bagi dlm bulan ramadhan...

anyway, back to my story.. this briefing session is mainly to explain to candidates about the course.and i was asked to get my PMP(personal mini project) ideas ready.we're gonna have consultation(i have no idea how it's gonna be), and there'll be a presentation on that later the same day.i've not done any presentation on any research like in 4years.last time was my final year degree presentation. hopefully i can present well and generate my ideas clearly,insyaAllah. other than me, another person from penang, a chinese (dunno girl/guy) is gonna take part too..and i thought i was going to japan alone... great thing to know that i'll have company.yeayy!! after the session, they are gonna bring us for dinner(in my case buka puasa)... i refused to join the dinner but they insisted..well, rezeki jangan ditolak kan? they said it's gonna be washoku..sukaa2!!

on other matter, i've received all the documents regarding my departure..my flight schedule, my visa application which is completed, just wait to be collected i don't know when, and my schedule for the next 6months.never had a full schedule for a long time...looking at the schedule, i can see that i'll be busy..back to being a student...excitement?? yeah..a little :)

so, please pray for my success today!

and i hope you all have a blast tuesday :))

Mai kids are mai soul

mai kids are mai soul...they are the main reason i'm smiling everyday, the one that keeps me strong and grow. the ones that teach me patience and positivity...they are my addiction!!

setiap kali berpisah dgn anak2, sekalipun hanya untuk sejam dua, i'll hug them very tight and kiss them a lot... i wouldn't dare walk out the door without hugging or kissing them even knowing they'll cry seeing me in nice dresses bertudung siap,but leaving them behind... leaving them quietly just for the sake of not wanting to make them cry is never an option. i mean, i'd rather see them crying knowing me leaving rather than leaving them quietly...afraid that, that's gonna be my last hug.you never know right?

i understand, we especially mothers are very attached to our kids. it is almost hard to leave them even for an hour. my kids especially rifqi mmg xboleh berenggang.kalau ada kat rumah mmg senantiasa nak melepek sebelah mama...kalau letak sebelah pon xmau..nak kena berdukung juga.tu yg sampai kes, mama masuk toilet dia nak teman jugak.

see his make-pity faces sambil peluk kaki xbg lepas.....
mmg cair la hati mama dia..huhuhu

don't get me wrong.it doesn't mean that i don't like my kids being this way...to be frank, i'm quite relief they can't resist me they way they are irresistable to me. that way i know that they need me, love me :) and i don't mind having to hold them while cooking just to stop them from crying, i don't mind giving them the attention they want as much as i can give... i just can't stand seeing them sad or dissapointed..

sometimes distance is good. an hour distance, a day distance is a nice therapy i think. it makes us appreciate our children more.even when we're at work, we can't help but to think about our kids at home/nursery..are they having a good day, are they eating well, what are they watching on tv, do they coop well with their sibblings/friends...are they ok? that's the credit of being a full-time-housewives(FTHW) i guess...they got to see their kids grow every minute, shape their kids the way they want without bad influences from outsiders, and the kids are like their Masters/PhD thesis... there's no bigger success that seeing your kids grow being a good caliphs,kan? so, to mothers who are a FTHW, jgn ambik pusing kata2 yang mengecil2kan anda.walaupon anda pemegang diploma,degree,master hatta phd sekalipon, pahala yg anda kumpul kerana menjadi ibu sepenuh masa kepada anak2 dan isteri sepenuh masa yang menjaga kebajikan dirumah insyaAllah jaaauuuhhh lebih hebat drpd saya yg bekerja.bayangkan,sekali kita pandang anak2 dengan penuh kasih sayang, itu sudah pahala, belum lagi kita yg suapkan makannya, memakaikan pakaiannya, mengajar mereka secara langsung atau tidak, menidurkan mereka, memberi kata2 perangsang kepada mereka etc.kadang2 pernah juga tahu yg ibu2 sepenuh masa ni susah hati kerana tidak dpt membantu ibu bapa yg membesarkan mereka kerana tiada pendapatan tetap setiap bulan.mengambil kata2 seorang tok guru yg saya hormati, walaupon ibu2 sepenuh masa ini tidak bekerja dan tiada pendapatan untuk membantu ibu bapa mereka sendiri, ingatlah bahawa ketaatan anda kepada suami anda dan usaha anda menjadi ibu kepada anak2 anda ada bahagian(pahala) kepada ibu bapa anda.pahala itu mengalir kepada mereka dengan syarat kita menjaga hak2 kita sebagai isteri spt menunaikan solat, menutup aurat dan melaksanakan kewajipan yg wajib lainnya dan meninggalkan laranganNya.insyaAllah...Allah kan Maha Kaya! (eh, macam lari topik pulak..heheh)

anyway, i'm leaving rayyan n rifqi at my in laws just now after celebrating rayyan's birthday..my mom needs my maid's help so, the kids have to tag along...God, it was hard to let go! bukan lama pon,xsampai 24hours...but the feelings of not being able to sleep with them, hug them at night, wake up to their beautiful smiles and all makes it hard to let go... rayyan salam, hug me, kiss me at both my cheeks n forehead(tiru papa dia..huhuh), but still it's not enough..hug rifqi sooooo tight,kiss him hard but still, it's not enough...Subhanallah, ini baru dugaan kecil.

when i told my friends, families about me going away for 6months leaving the kids behind, some are being so sceptical. i know there's a lot to go through but at the same time, it's not impossible. i'm seriously trying to be very positive about this matter from the 1st time i took the decision to go. everyday i keep telling myself that i'm gonna be okay. i'm hoping others wouldn't pity me but please pray for me...pray that Allah would grant me the strength, the love, the sanity to survive. Please stop worrying about me..insyaAllah, i'll be fine... i know i'll be fine... and to friends who keep me strong, trust in me and tune me into being positive, may Allah repay your kindness! i hope nothing more than your doa'.

ramadhan is approaching... bulan yang mulia untuk meminta kepadaNya...bulan untuk menggandakan pahala...bulan yg penuh rahmah. semoga Allah beri kekuatan, hidayah, kasih sayang, dan pertolonganNya kepada kita semua....

AAJ Family day & Rifqi's 1st birthday

'Rajio Taisou' - senaman radio

Rifqi during rajio taisou

inside Rimba Ilmu

both my boys hate anything on their head

exhausted

anyam ketupat..seriously it was very hard to teach people how to make one..

Rayyan

kenangan dengan tour guide

idrus sensei & Aidan

Papa & Rayyan

OP

tiup tepung ke makan tepung?

tangkap bulu tangkis

cute Shouma

Rifqi & mama

Boling sepak takraw

pengadil Rayyan

Rifqi & Tok Ma

Rifqi's 1st birthday cake..sedapppp..choc+coffee

thanx everyone for the birthday song

alhamdulillah dapat celebrate birthday rifqi

Rayyan tunggu kek

we had fun!!

:))

..and the countdown starts now

this morning.. i received this...

do you know what it is??

a nightmare and a given CHANCE ..hehehe

the date is there!

and a lot of forms to fill in... medical check-up, questionnaire, homework etc

i guess the countdown begins now

Ya Allah..berilah kekuatan

dan lorongkanlah kami jalan yg terbaik!