Our new castle (^^)v @ Chiba

this picture above was taken on the 1st day we arrived in chiba... the weather was fine, saw the sky tree, drove thru rainbow bridge and saw the wide tokyo city... on the upper left picture, can you see the tokyo disney resort sign? our new home is near to disneyland.. 15mins by car.. selama ni kalau nk dtg disneyland mmg kena cari tpt stay sbb nk duduk dlm disneyland one whole day...skg nih, anytime bole jumpa abg mickey mouse.. skg ni rate one day pass 6200yen(rm250 lebey kurang) seorang.ingat nk beli one year pass tp bila check2 , sampai 80 000yen seorang for both disney sea n disneyland..kalau convert dlm rm3200camtu..kalau nk beli alamatnyer sebulan 2kali kena pergi baru berbaloi2..muak ler ngadap mickey mouse camtu..so, cancel!

at around 1230pm we reached our new home at ichikawa..it's an apartment kind of house.. located on the 4th floor from total 6th floor.. we can actually see the sea from our balcony and also sky tree from the entrance door...malam2 mmg cantek nampak sky tree dgn lampu hiasnya... angin sepoi2 masuk dlm rumah, xde terasa panas sgt mungkin sbb dekat dgn laut..tak macam kat toyama kena bukak aircond.. kat sini, aircond xde, mentol lampu pon xde..cuma lampu dapur je disediakan. dengar cerita, mmg konsep macam tu kalau masuk rumah baru skg..tp nak cari lampu kat jepun, senang je..nak letak lampu pesen2 jurai2 pon boleh sbb soket dia almost semua boleh masuk... tu yang beriya ke ikea..tp last2, beli lampu simple2 je..huhuhuh..rumah ni ada 3bilik, kitchen n dining yg luas..suka dapur sbb ada tingkap, boleh sekodeng luar sambil2 masak..bawah apartment kami ada 24hour market..jual barang2 basah n barang2 dapur..kalau abis gula ke garam anytime bole turun n beli, hence nak beli ikan hari2 pon boleh..ada aje sale nya..i like!! another thing i love about this house, ada banyak pintu n tingkap..

rumah yang masih kosong..tunggu lori pakcik sakai sampai anta barang2..masa sampai tu, dah nampak lori pakcik sakai berlegar2 kat area rumah..mungkin depa cari rumah dulu..pkl 1lebey, depa call nk bawa masuk barang...kami tgk n tunjuk2 je..

 

lps barang2 dah masuk rumah, lepak2 kat rumah kepenatan jalan jauh..pkl 4 mcm tu, kami pon siap2 nk pergi jalan2 area myouden & gyoutoku..  berbuka puasa kat luar je..malam tu, sinsing lengan memunggah barang la kami..sampailah seminggu baru siap..eh, skg ni pon ada 1kotak lagi yg belum dipunggah..

 

upper left picture is rifqi holding 'semi' @ balm cricket.. musim panas ni mmg banyak semi..pernah jemur baju, semi tu sembunyi dlm baju melayu,siap dah masuk almari lagi..seb baik bukak balik sbb nk masukkan seluar..sekali semi tu bunyi..melompat la apa lagi! rifqi lagi berani drpd rayyan bab2 serangga..tp berani2 takut jugak.. semi yg dia pegang tu dah mati kot..

 

 

this picture was taken today..

left is our 'genkan'.. rumah jepun, bukak pintu depan ada genkan ni, tempat letak kasut.. n then ada pintu lagi..

right is soon to be Mai Sewing Room..but right now, jadi stor simpan boxes n kids stuff.. love mai new sewing table & the big white chair..tq emirr! beriya bawa mesin jahit sampai ke jepun, bukak2 kotak pedal takde, wayar pon tinggal.. seb baik ada jual kat sini.. i miss mai cutting board n yellow ruler..wish someone would be very nice to bring them back to me... cutting board kat jepun xbest..ukuran dalam cm n kecik n mahal.. huhuh..

 

 

gambar bawah tu adalah wajah2 kesayanganku!

 

home sweet home!!

 

 

The Beginning of the story

*banyaknya habuk..karat pon ada*

lamanya x menulis...cliche la nk kata xde masa, padahal duduk rumah je.. ingatkan bila dah jadi surirumah sepenuh masa(FTHW) ni, banyak masa boleh menggodeh belog..tp sangkaanku silap belaka... makin malass la pulak.. biasanya bila nk mengadap blog ni, hati kena tenang, idea bergelimpangan n xde orang kacau(paling penting!).. sbb tu dulu2, byk update blog kat opis..oppss! hehehe... bila dah duduk rumh bertiga dengan 2ashkar malaya xcukup umur ni, tangan rasa tersekat2 menaip, idea dtg on off..tu yg malas..alternatifnya, banyak melayan instagram.. skg ni mmg addicted dgn instagram..fb pon dah kureng..sbb instagram senang..boleh 2dlm 1.. oleh sbb dr azali mmg xpandai xlayan twitter, makanya skg ni life live update byk tertumpu kat IG.. kawan2 yg nk tau perkembangan boleh la follow kat IG yer.. id 'mysara' like always ;)

skg nih, my heroes tiga2 still sleeping soundly while yours truly can't sleep, blame IG n Pinterest! huhuhu.. tido pkl 12lebey, bgn balik utk sahur pkl 230am, subuh pkl 315am n godeh2 printer..bila lompat atas katil, mata cerah je... nih yg dok ngadap lappy pink... rasanya macam dah lama xcerita santai kat sini.. asek2 ngelat letak gmbr (kira update jugak la tu..huhu).. kali ni nak membebel panjang la pulak.. yer, insyaAllah akan jadi panjang... *alert!*

nak cerita baaaaanyyyaakkkk benda..kalau nk letak gambar, sampai ke sudah la jawabnya..kalau ada kesempatan mmg nk retrieve balik kenangan2 indah yg dah berlalu dalam sebulan ni..maklumlah, bermula hidup baru, suasana baru, job title baru! proudly calling myself FTHW.. yang masih terkedek2 nk set up jadual harian... skg nih, honestly mmg xde jadual..main hentam ikut suka hati nk buat apa... maklumlah, dah lama xjadi surirumah sepenuh masa. nak membiasakan diri tu mcam amek banyak masa. dulu masa kerja berangan nak buat macam2 bila dah duk rumah 24jam...tp lagi tak produktif ada laa..mungkin buat masa ni kot.. banyak la sebab-musababnya *justifikasi diri bagi sedap hati* ehehehe

??  eh xstart lagi masuk isi kandungan..baru muqaddimah dah 3perenggan..sape ajar buat karangan ni..uish2..

tak tau nk start cerita dari mana... sbnrnya tak tau nk cerita secerah mana...hahaha..boleh tak? skg nih suka perkataan pencerahan..bila sebut pon dah terasa 'cerah'.. positif sungguh aura perkataan ni..

apa kata kita tukar pattern penulisan kepada bentuk menjawab soalan..nih berdasarkan soalan2 yg selalu kami terima (macam hotline!)

1. kenapa pindah jepun?

kenapa yer? hmm... sebenarnya, me & emir dah lama menyimpan hasrat nk datang balik jepun.raise our family here,maybe for few years...

2. kenapa?

sbb ngada2! muehehe..tu pon ye jugak kot....

year 2010 :
i guess everything started in 2010 lagi.. dulu mula2 emir apply nk sambung belajar, alhamdulillah dapat tempat di nagaoka university n dpt sensei mmg best, cumanya nasib xmenyebelahi, xdpt scholarship.... bila emir tak dapat, kami pon pasrah la.. xlama lps tu, dlm tahun yg sama, mai dan 2org lagi kawan ofis disuruh pergi kursus selama 6bulan di urawa,japan. mmg mai nk sangat pergi tahun sebelum tu, tp masa tu tgh pregnant rifqi..so, bila offer tu sampai lagi sekali, dah tawar hati nk pergi sbb ada baby..masa dpt offer tu rifqi baru 7~8bulan camtu..antara kami bertiga, salah seorang diWAJIBkan pergi..boss mmg xde kawtim. memikirkan situasi 2 lagi sahabat yg juga ada alasan masing2..i offered myself.. kursus bermula bulan 9,2011..by that umur rifqi 1thn stgh..umur 1thn 2bulan dah berhenti full-breastfeed sbb nk ajar dia minum susu biasa..mmg sedey sgt sbb xsampai 2tahun..mungkin bukan rezeki adik. tp rifqi sangat cooperative n very easy to hanlde.. dia terima je any changes we made.

SEPT2011~MAC 2012 :
and so i flew to japan sept 2011~ mac 2012... sebelum pergi, i can't remember why emir too was suddenly searching for jobs in japan. mmg kitorang ni mmg sejak azali tak bley long-distance relationship... ngada2 kan?! sejak dr zaman single, sampai la dah beranak-pinak ni, kemana2 mesti nk berkepit. imagine nk duduk jauh2 berbulan2? and so, he searched n rezeki dia, senang je dpt keje..ulang-alik naik flight for interviews n akhirnya confirm. tarikh masuk kerja pulak 2weeks lewat dpd tarikh i started my course. i flew 13th sept, while he left for japan on 26th sept... mmg just nice!! eventhough, jarak antara urawa n toyama is like 500km++, we feel secured being in the same country..hahaha..bukannya jumpa selalu pon, sebulan sekali je..tambang train mahai!!

APRIL :
after i finished my course, mac 2012... mmg niat dihati nk sambung belajar dah lama...tapi inisiatif kureng.. bila dah balik msia, kepala pk nk dtg jepun balik je..tp kena tunggu lps majlis kawen brother in law dulu..aih, lamanya rasa kena tunggu..mac~jun..4bulan jugak tu..pertengahan mac, dapat tahu ttg offer scholarship dr monbusyo(kerajaan jepun).. mmg niat nk cuba je apply,  but i spent most time searching for supervisor.. xsangka pulak kalau penjawat kerajaan process nya lain ( tu la xbaca syarat betul2)...leceh & byk pulak simpang2 nk kena lalu..itu pon tau last2 minute dpd ofismate yg baik hati..siap tolong bg contoh isi borang sume..alhamdulillah, Allah dtgkan pertolongan..mmg masa tu dah nk give up, sbb mmg diri ini jenis yg malas n menyampah isi borang..rasanya masa tu 4hari to dateline.tp emir n my dear kak niza, yakinkan utk cuba juga apply..and so i made peace anta je la mana yg mampu...dan dari situ bermula la perjalanan yg baru..iaitu meneruskan perjuangan peng'apply'an... :)

MAY :
tgh2 bulan mei tu seb baik emir balik msia seminggu,kalau tak mmg meroyan gak kot..dpt la jalan2 sampai ke cherating... best!!

JUN :
selesai sahaja majlis resepsi pada 16hb, pada 18 jun kami sekeluarga berangkat ke jepun. ditemani mak mertua n maklong suami.. seronok bukan main lagi adam n aydeen.. maklumlah, cita2 nk dtg jepun dgn papa dah tercapai..rifqi's 1st flight... it was a pleasant journey with lotsa hopes!

JULY:
balik malaysia for a week.. on few important matters.. tukar status visa, interview & top up bekalan makanan nk puasa+raya..hehehe don't you just feel grateful for having air asia? even japanese pon ramai dah kenal malaysia thru air asia..sampai depa pon dah ada LCC(cuma xde 'T' je kat blkg) hehehe

and soon in AUGUST :

we're having a major change too,isnyaAllah.. will tell about it when it happens ( maybe a few days, weeks after it happens..eheheh)


you see...

life seems to be so much fun this way. during school days, semua jalan macam dah diatur, meaning kita dah boleh agak ke mana arah kita nk tuju...and we struggled for that, for what we have in mind. but after that.. lps masuk alam pekerjaan, at one point of mai life..i felt frozen, kalau diibaratkan macam graf, hidup rasa macam garisan mendatar... kerja la sampai bebila n that's it!of course that doesn't deny my passion in teaching...i enjoy seeing my students growth..but somehow, something is missing... bila mula tukar arah kompas, hidup rasa lebih hidup... walaupun skg nih dok kat rumah, layan anak2 dan suami.. rasa waku2(tertunggu2) what comes next!

yes.. everyday i wonder, 'what comes next'

kadang2 terfikir gak pasal baby..hehehe..rindu nk bau wangi minyak yu yi cap limau..kadang2 saje je sapu kat aydeen bg bau baby sket..hehehe.. tp semua tu ku serahkan pada Dia :))


*lerr, 2je soalannya?* hihihi

Mai heart & soul

semoga Allah merahmati dan melindungi perjalanan kami

Mother's Day 2012

mother's day card from rayyan

buat kat tadika..he didn't hand it over me but i found it while browsing his bag for homework

*hati berbunga2*

thank you sayang!!

and this is my gift for my MIL,

2 of my girlfriends (both also a mother) are coming over today

yeayy!!

happy mother's day everyone!!

9years and counting

~Rayyan is 4years 8months 3weeks old~

~Rifqi is 1year 11months 2weeks old~

17.04.2003~17.04.2012

9th year knowing each other...

been with each other ever since and growing old wiser together...

with 2beautiful boys and planning to have more babies in future insyaAllah

ups n downs... good n rainy days...

alhamdulillah, we're better than who we are before in many ways, i believe...

and we're still improving　insyaAllah..

as for the boys,

rayyan has just recovered from fever last 2days...after he regained his strength rifqi vomitted quite bad and having slight fever.. but he's recovering now.he's showing good sign wanting to smile n tease his big brother... but still weak to run like he usually does.. and this morning, our maid is not feeling well... i let her rest for the day... right now, when i have to handle almost everything by myself..i really, really miss my other half... i even dreamt of him last night... well, for a few nights actually... we're facing some challenges being away from each other but we know the day will come when we'll be one small happy family again soon!! i hardly can't wait for that day...

Mai wish,

semoga anak2 semua sihat dan Allah permudahkan segala urusan...

2012

it's 3days past 2012 and i find it hard to start again... another 66days before i leave this place and that time it is not gonna be easy...

in 2011, i have to leave the kids and get to be with my husband eventhough we're 300++km apart from each other...

and in 2012, i'll be leaving my husband and get to be with the kids...

both years is a struggle...each time i'm giving up something to get something.

i have no 2012 new year's resolution... but i'm glad, my 2011 was a bless. this year, i'm planning to stick with 'mai pace' and hope that everything turns out just fine... pray for me!

maybe my little wish would be wanting to spend mai days in 2012 in better ways...

how are you starting your 2012?

a ferris wheel in Osaka Rinku Town captured on 01.01.12 with my beloved half by my side

and for the record dear izmir iswandi arifin, I LOVE YOU!! i don't think i can ever say this enough to show how much i need you in my life..

and i wish 2012 will be another great year for the 4 of us!

Saturday & Sunday

Mai Saturday & Sunday become less fun without you n the kids...

 you are mai weekends!!

Kenduri Doa Selamat & Tahlil

picture taken a week before i left for japan

alhamdulillah, telah selamat berlangsung majlis tahlil n doa selamat di rumah kami.buat pertama kalinya kami buat makan2 jemput jiran2...sejak pindah xsempat2 nk buat kenduri..ini pon my MIL yg suggest..dia yg masak n uruskan bab makan..kami yg lain2 tolong2 jer.. thanx Ma!

Rayyan & Qayra

sayang betul dgn adek rifqi..bawa jalan2 naik motor..

tp skg adek rifqi dah pandai skit2 bawa motor sendiri

antara yg datang

ilyana & family

haris  

Uncle Danial & Rifqi

Atsumi sensei,danial san and their baby joshua shouma kun & Hoshino sensei

kak haiza & famili, naz & ida

yati n her baby danial mirza(cik kak naik motor tu qaseh sofea,my sis daughter)

alhamdulillah majlis berjalan lancar.ramai sungguh yg datang.jiran2 yg sgt friendly n supportive..i love my neighbourhood.kankei kuat...baru je nk mesra2 dah kena pergi kan?

terima kasih kepada yg sudi menghadirkan diri..alhamdulillah, berkat doa semua sudah selamat sampai di sini dan masih bertahan :)

insyaAllah, ada rezeki kita jumpa lagi

Ittekimasu(Malaysia)...Tadaima(Japan)!

~Rayyan Adam is 4years 1month 2weeks old~

~Rifqi Aydeen is 1year 4months 2weeks old~

12.09.2011(Monday) 10:00pm

berpeluk sakan dgn anak2..

the 4 of us

13.09.2011(Tuesday) around 4:00am

sunrise..

subhanallah..what a view!

lautan awan..

total distance around 5841km

japan from bird's view...sawah sana sini

natsukashii

mai room..very cozy! mcm bilik hotel..towel,tea,syampoo n body shower sudah tersedia

terus mencari wifi n webcam with the kids..

rayyan onichan :)

rifqi kun :)

watching them play together

senyuman manis dr adek rifqi

mai 1st dinner..

ptg tadi sempat jalan kaki temankan kawan pergi aeon(dulu namanya saty).shopping sket brg2 keperluan.masa pergi, tersesat sikit..hehehe..skg nih musim panas mmg mencabar berjalan kaki..plus, dah lama tak berjalan kaki jauh2.td cuba nk tido tp asyik terjaga2...hopefully malam nih dpt lelap dgn lena..esok ada opening ceremony n placement test...oral test pon ada katanya...

semoga dipermudahkan urusan pada hari esok

not bad for a 1st day!

MAK

Rayyan is 4years 1month 2weeks old
Rifqi is 1year 4months 4days old

Al-Fatihah buat mak...

19.10.1936 ~ 06.09.2011

terima kasih atas doa dan kiriman al-fatihah daripada sahabat2 yg prihatin... semoga pahalanya sampai kepada mak di sana...

can't really write about mak at the moment..and i hate to tell the story over n over again..what difference does it make if i tell every details about her...the fact is she's gone. don't ask about her illness or how she died... the clear asnwer is Allah lebih sayangkan mak...please make peace with that. i don't like the negative vibe i feel each time remembering back her condition in the hospital.even tak sampai hati nk ambil gmbr mak terlantar di hospital.sayu hati tgk wajah mak.i don't want to remember that if possible.it's just too hard for me.just thinking about it makes me wanna cry... but, i have nothing to regret..sempat beraya dengan mak..sempat ambil gmbr banyak2 dengan mak.sempat jaga mak sepanjang 3hari dia di hospital...sempat peluk,sayang,cium mak walaupun mak xboleh membalas..paling tak boleh lupa, mak alirkan air mata dlm keadaan tak sedar semasa aku usap kepalanya.. 

everything seems to be very challenging for me these few months... and sometimes...i can't feel my heart...it is numb without feelings.... i keep telling myself, i have to move on...

gambar kenangan bersama mak di pagi syawal..

mak pergi genap 7hari syawal...26hari selepas pemergian abg halim

Ya Allah,

Ampunkanlah dosa2 ibuku

Terimalah segala amalan2 baiknya

Kasihanilah dia sebagaimana dia mengasihiku sewaktu aku kecil sehingga dewasa

Tempatkanlah dia dikalangan insan2 yg engkau kasihi

dan ampunkanlah dosa2ku, hambamu yg kerdil ini...

amin...

semoga kita bertemu di sana nnti ye mak...

In Memory

in preparation of migrating....

we have to sell this baby..

our 6th car

(bukan 6biji kereta kami ada..tp kereta yg ke-6 kami beli)

SOLD!

within a day of adevertisement...mcm goreng pisang panasss

alhamdulillah...urusan berjalan lancar

Perginya insan ibarat ayah

benarlah kata2 imam ghazali, "apakah perkara yang paling dekat dengan manusia? jawapannya, MATI"

hari selasa yang lalu, 9hb ogos 2011 bersamaan dengan 9ramadhan 1432hijrah...abang halim(my brother) telah menerima jemputan Allah untuk bertemu denganNya. abg halim dimasukkan ke hospital pada 8hb(isnin) kerana dia mengadu penat sangat. i received the news on monday, but i just thought that nothing is serious. on tuesday, i attended my briefing session at JFKL and my sis said that he was doing fine...the doc need to monitor his heart.after dinner with the JFKL people, around 9pm i received another call from emirr saying that abg halim is critical and asked me to call my sis... before i did that, my sis call me telling me to come home as soon as possible as the doc claimed that abg halim might not have the chance(little that i know, at that same moment the doc was doing cpr for him to try and wake him up). i was so tired that day, my waist is aching dunno why and even so i was rushing to balik kampung as fast as i could.few minutes later, my nephew called saying that my brother is gone... all i can say was,"yeke? innalillah" without any tears... i don't know why i'm so calm. maybe he's gone so fast that it's hard for me to accept the fact that he's really gone

we headed for bp at 1045pm and reached there around 1am. jenazah sudah berada dirumah..ditengah2 ruang tamu tertutup rapi.jenazah sudah dimandikan dan dikapankan.menurut my sis, jenazah akan dikuburkan esok pagi jam 10.kulihat riak wajah mak sangat tenang. mak seakan redha dengan pemergian anak lelakinya yang masih bujang.kasihan emak diduga dengan kematian anak..ini yg kedua kalinya. i asked my sis what happened. it all happen so fast.my sis said that, on that day(tuesday) arwah was ok.it all happen lepas solat maghrib.arwah pergi ke surau hospital untuk solat maghrib.menurut orang yg duduk di katil berdekatan dengannya, selepas pulang dr solat, arwah baring di atas katil dan tiba2 terdengar bunyi benda jatuh.bila dilihat..arwah sudah nazak dan doktor,nurse datang...jantungnya semakin lemah... jam 1033mlm..arwah pergi meninggalkan kami.subhanallah, pemergiannya amat mudah, tidak menyusahkan kami sekeluarga, perginya dengan cara yang baik dalam bulan ramadhan... selepas dengar cerita from my sis, baru aku mencari kekuatan untuk duduk ditepi jenazah membacakan yasin. aku duduk disebelah kepala arwah...bermula sahaja baris pertama surah yasin, air mata jatuh tidak tertahan.segala kenangan bersama arwah kembali bermain diingatan.felt like he's watching me reciting yasin for him.

arwah adalah seorang yg sangat baik. dialah yg menggantikan kedudukan seorang ayah dlm hidupku.kalau kecik2 dulu, cikgu panggil ibu bapa datang sekolah..dialah yang akan mewakilkan mak.kalau ada budak2 nakal kacau adik bongsunya, dia akan memarahi budak2 tu...kalau ada urusan apa2 yang memerlukan penjaga, dia yg akan mengambil alih semua tanggungjawab.sayangnya arwah kepadaku...teringat aku waktu dulu2,balik sekolah agama..arwah menjemputku dengan motor besarnya..aku kekok naik motor tu sbb besar sgt n bila duduk kat belakang aku jadi tinggi.tp angin kuat kena kat tudung,seronok... arwah suka sangat pada budak2...alhamdulillah, walaupon tidak berkesempatan untuk bertemu arwah pada hari2 terakhirnya, kami sempat berjumpa pada 1ramadhan yg lalu..rayyan & rifqi pon sangat rapat dengannya..walaupon hanya mengenalinya sekejap2 jer.sempat jugak aku ambil gmbr arwah bersama rifqi pada 1ramadhan lalu

ceria sungguh arwah ketika ini...

namun Allah lebih menyayanginya..selang seminggu kemudian, Allah ambil dia dari pangkuan kami.

jenazah arwah sesampainya kami ke rumah

wajah mak... melihat wajah mak yg begitu tenang membuat hatiku sayu..apabila jasad anaknya diangkat untuk dibawa pergi, mak mengesat airmatanya membuat aku lebih sebak... tabahnya mak!

jenazah dibawa keluar dari rumah ibunya

disolatkan...

dibawa ke tanah perkuburan

dimasukkan ke liang lahad dan dikambuskan

teringat kata,'asal kita dari tanah, dan kepada tanah jua kita dikembalikan'

abang halim sudah berpindah 'rumah'..berpindah alam...semoga rohnya bahagia disana dan ditempatkan dikalangan insan2 yg dikasihi Allah.

kali ini aku menyaksikan urusan pengebumian arwah... sewaktu kakak sulung(kak yah) pergi meninggalkan kami, aku di jepun... ralatnya aku kerana tidak dapat berjumpa dengannya..dia umpama ibu keduaku.kali ini,aku tidak mahu melepaskan peluang menjadi saksi kepada perginya seorang lagi insan yang aku kasihi.semua ini membuat aku terfikir, bagaimana sekiranya itu adalah aku?? jika aku yg dikapankan..jika aku yg diyasinkan,jika aku yg disolatkan, jika aku yg dikebumikan, jika aku yg ditalkinkan...jika AKU? sudahkah aku bersedia? subhanallah!! bila aku pandang ke langit, bila aku lihat pokok2, burung2, wajah suami, mak, adik beradik yg lain, saudara mara..betapa semua ini akan aku tinggalkan...dan aku akan menghadap Allah dengan hanya roh berbekalkan amalan yg tidak cukup(bilakah akan dikira cukup?)

sungguh hidup ini singkat..sungguh hidup ini tempat mencari saham untuk dibawa ke sana...sungguh selama ini banyak yg aku alpa...sungguh diri ini lemah

sesungguhnya, menyaksikan suatu kematian mendidik hati agar sedar bahawa dunia hanya sementara, sekejap dan ajal tidak kira masa...

al-fatihah~

abang halim, isnyaAllah kita berjumpa semula suatu hari nanti