Thursday, August 19, 2010

Day 09 & Rayyan's

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

my late sister, Kak Yah..

i never really talked about her in my blog...because she's no longer with us... but she exist vividly in my memories. i cans till remember her laughs, her smell, her skills in cooking and her gentle voice...she's someone special and Allah loves her more...

she is my oldest sister.. to tell the truth, she's the reason i'm alive today... i can't describe how i owe her big time for saving me. ...she helped a lot... her existence in my life pretty much like a mother... a place to nag about my daily life, the only place i can share  about everything... i lost her during my 1st year degree. it was exam week.i din't get the news right until i call home and ask to speak to her, but only then i knew she was gone. my family didn't call because they were afraid i can't concentrate on my paper.i called her the week before because she was warded for her diabetes, but she said she was fine(i know she wasn't but pretend that everything's gonna be fine...she's around 40+ then).that was the first time i felt what it was like to loose someone you love.i still can hear myself crying all day long in my small room wanting to go home to see her for the last time... she had suffered enough from all the tortured and Allah wanted to save her from suffering more... the sad thing was she didn't have the chance to see my kids, even my husband... owh, i really miss her....



" adek rindu kak yah!"



may Allah bless her soul there...



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tokorode,

since the birth of Rifqi, rayyan somehow realize that he's a big brother now but the funny thing is...

Me : Rifqi, abang rayyan mana?? abang rayyan?
(ok, clearly rifqi lom pandai jawab lagi but i love talking to babies!)

rayyan ada je dekat2 situ
Rayyan : eh, bukan abang laa... ayyan!

Me : bukan abang ke? nih kan adek rifqi, so nih abang rayyan laaa

Rayyan : bukan abaaaangg, AYYAN!!

Me : owwhh~ ayyan..

i don't know what seems to be the problem but he doesn't seem to love the idea of calling him 'abang rayyan'... bukan main marah lagi.. hihihi..
sekarang nih bukan main petah lagi bercakap. tiap2 hari ada jer benda baru yg kitorang discover from his vocab. semalam dia tanya my mil,

"ummi, tak nak pergi bank?"

"hari ini xpergi laa..."
jwab my mil yg agak terkejut dgn vocab 'bank'..mana dia dpt tah.

"eh, kenapa tak pergi? pergi laaa"

=)

dulu susah hati dia lambat cakap..skg tak terlayan borak dgn dia..
his favourite question is

"mama, wat apa tu??"
cute!!

oh, anak!



today's 'cuci mata' pictures





4 comments:

Fith said...

rayyan cute!

sedih baca yg tang atas tu,rasa mcm bleh faham how u feel.moga roh kak yah ditempatkan bersama org2 beriman...

naz said...

Comel la rayyan..cam model lak. Mama dia ke yg ajar posing camni?

zura said...

ala comelnya anak mummy sorang nie..! erm tebalik pulak dgn amsyar.., amsyar dapat je adik.., terus bahasa kan diri dia abg long.., ehehehehe..

mysara said...

fith;
maceh! cute cam mak dia kan??

dulu mai ada cite kat fith ke pasal kak yah?? sedey sgt masa dpt tau dia dah xde... rasa mcm hilang mak!

nas,
aku tak payah ajar..natural talent! hahaha..ok2, xbaik cakap besar bulan puasa ni

zura,
tu laa.. xtau apa masalah budak ni. xmacho kot panggil abang.