Kenapa saya ada blog?

last saturday, one of my students said to me lebih kurang camni,"sensei,arituh saya terjumpa blog sensei... ntah mcm mana, tiba2 mcm kenal jer nama..sekali tgk2 rupanyer sensei nyer blog". sambil tersengih2 terkejutnyer saya!! dalam hati,"alamak!!" lps tu,ada student lain pon terdengar dan menyampuk,"yeke2.. nk baca jugak... boleh kan sensei?"... me,"xyah laa..bukan ada apa pon.byk merapu jer.. xyah baca laa"... sebenarnya,hati rasa keberatan bila ada student nk baca blog ni. bukan apa, tak suka kalau nnti derang terungkit dlm kelas ke, terkomen mengenai entry blog di tpt yg tak sesuai ke... rasa xsedap, xselesa nnti. that scene made me think of why actually i started indulging in the blog world... byk reason. salah satunya, mai adalah orang yg suka tulis diari waktu zaman kanak2 dulu.xde la kanak2 sgt, tp bila dah pandai susun ayat sendiri, pandai beli buku sendiri... sembunyik2 tulis diari. growing up as a kid that's full of uncertain things in life, i need to tell someone how i'm feeling. with diary, i'm free to speak.. to say what i feel truly... i don't need to hide or pretend... and somehow it helps to ease the pain and sorrow.i think, writing the diary had helped me survived those hard days growing up as ME. i still keep some of them(wahhh, ada byk rupanyer..heheh).once in a while, when i read back all the words, reminds me of how i lived those days back then. siap ada bekas titisan air mata...coz most of the time, i wrote when i'm down... melepaskan perasaan.. bila dah masuk asrama... ada jugak tulis sikit2..tp sbb sibuk dgn study, xberapa produktif.bila masuk preparation course, lagi laa... tp ada jugak tulis skit2...bila pegi nihon, no more diaries but i wrote letters... weird huh? bila dah mula celik IT, kenal apa itu BLOG, mula la berjinak2 balik menulis... blog nih pon, mula2 private. because it is meant to be dedicated to rayyan onichan.it's like a journal of me & my other half's journey with him. i'm so excited to have rayyan from the day i knew he's coming. i don't wanna miss anything that i start writing(walaupon xberapa istiqamah). i started opening it to public coz i knew no one would read it... n then, i shared it with frens, coz right then xramai kawan2 sebaya yg pregnant.maklumlah, masih study lagi... sampai la skg, walaupon kadang2 terselit cerita yg tidak berkaitan rayyan, i wrote it here too. as a reminder that, the event took place while he's growing. i think, i would appreciate it, if my mother would have left me a journal of her journey with me... don't you? untuk menjawab tajuk entry kali nih,"Kenapa saya ada blog?"

-menulis adalah salah satu hobi saya... or more to merapu & luah perasaan(perasan??).Boss Jepun saya pon tgk blog saya..tp oleh sbb bahasa saya rojak BM+English+Japs=MeJapLish, rasanyer susah dia nk paham kot... dia kata rajinnyer saya tulis..tu blom bg dia baca blog anak murid dia satu lagi... yg kat Yamaguchi nunn haa.. boleh dpt anugerah blogger rajin tu...hehehe.masa kat AAJ, rajin tulis sakubun(karangan)..alhamdulillah,i won some essay contests.satu tu, ada lagi simpan sampai skg..speech contest?? NO..NO..NO.. kaki ketaq nk naik stage.abis blank nnti. -utk cerita if possible every happy things that happens in our daily life.seboleh2nya, yg xberapa seronok tu, xperlu la dikenang... -i love to take pictures walaupon masih tahap amatur. here's the best place to share, to learn and to look back(in case kalau gmbr2 yg ada dlm simpanan hilang lesap.dah pernah terjadi pon. how can i not fell in love with u,mr.internet!) -untuk kongsi cerita dgn kawan2 yg jauh & dekat.especially, bila dah ada anak & family makin berkembang.. they all helps in many ways..bg nasihat, tips, kongsi pandangan... infact, sneaking at their blog is my daily breakfast-time activity. -to gain support when i'm down.even just by dropping as simple comment like,"i know you'll be strong"..ect.. appreciate it! Allah je tau mcm mana those words sooths me.. -untuk cerita & belajar pasal hidup... sometimes we learn from our mistakes, and sometimes we learn from others... kerana itulah saya masih menulis dan tidak lagi mem'private'kan blog nih. tp bila student dah terjumpa nih, serba salah pulak.. (sebenarnya saya nih pemalu..hahaha..*sila pengsan*) -----gakusei tachi, sensei no buroggu o yondeiru toshitara, himitsu ni shite ne------ camne ek? ada jugak yg tanya, lps adek lahir nnti, nama blog nih kena la tukar. for the time being, let it be this way... lgpon, rayyan la pencetus idea utk buka blog nih... adek xkesah pon,kan adek kan?? yes,he's giving me a kick tanda setuju!

so,let me ask you back,

"Kenapa anda ada blog?"

kalau buat macam tag pon best jugak..

hmmm, kettei! saya nk tag org2 yg baca entry nih...yer KAMU!!!