Hayaku Genki ni Natte ne,Rayyan onichan!

i can't really remember the last time rayyan had a fever... even if he's not feeling well like having a mild flu or cough he's still active and able to cheer us up. but today was different. he was okay during morning while we're busy setting up our little gardening project, he was busy playing with all the tools and soil too... he was happy because he can get himself in the dirt and need not to worry about us getting mad at him because mommy and dadddy were also playing with dirt... after everything finished, he had his bath with daddy while i'm in the kitchen preparing lunch.He came down from upstairs in nice clothes, with hair nicely done like edward cullen by his daddy, and the smile(yup, that killing-boleh-buat-cair smile)... i smiled and asked him some i-know-the-answers-questions just to tease him. he went to watch tv and i went back to the kitchen. after i finished, i went to see what he was watching... guess what? he was watching p.ramlee's movie. i didn't bother to checked on the title but seeing him so into that movie makes me wonder.he didn't have any specific favourite cartoon charactor unlike some kids who love thomas, barney ect.. apatah lagi tgk cerita melayu which is in plain black and white.i mean, he was sitting still like staring at the screen instead of watching what the movie was all about.macam orang termenung... i sense something was wrong. i sat beside him and hug him. he was boiling! i mean, his body was really hot! but he's not clingy at all. he still gave me his smile... but a silent smile... he refused to have his lunch. didn't asked for milk for the whole day..that's a record although he's not into fm as well. he only wants tea. weird! he had his nap at 2pm and woke up at 3pm... sejam tu sempat la tepek dahi dia dgn cooler pad. bangun tido pon xmoh nasi, xmoh susu... he was not as talkative as he always do. we brought him along to jusco to do a quick shopping. kalau biasanya, sepanjang perjalanan dia akan sibuk tanya itu ini... this time dia senyap jer... just wandering around with zero interest in anything even if we brought the topic up or asked him the questions he loved to be asked, he'll reply with a nod or a word... sepanjang shopping pon dia diam jer.. like a very2 good boy.kalau selalu xnk duduk dlm troli supermarket, arinih bole dia setia sehingga ke akhir shopping duduk dlm tu without any hassle... biasanya kalau pergi shopping, his big interest will goes to the lift which he calls as 'ting tong', kali nih dia slumber tak layan... xmenunjuk minat langsung.owhh, poor my baby!! sebak gilller bila dia macam nih.. i can't believe i miss his menace for a while... why do i refuse to bring him to the clinic? because i know what i'll get from those clinic with typical ordinary check-up which at the end of the day all i get is some antibiotics, fever meds and a bill which didn't do me good. i think i lost trust in public clinics since i came back from japan.i remember when i'm down with bad-never-had-i-experienced fever, i went to the clinic and they prescribe me fever medicines without taking a thorough check up on me whose shivering like *ell.i went to 3different docs but my fever continues.it was a 2 days nightmare. i was suffering from swollen breast back then.. and everytime i told them about it, they just say it's normal for breastfeeding mother, no tips given to relieve the pain or anything(or the tips which i already knew from the internet which doesn't help), instead they even adviced me to stop breastfeeding(siap bg pill stop milk production!)..sabar jer laa.. since then i lost trust to the docs. at last, my MIL's advices was the one that helps. i prefer self-treatment,home remedy with some vitamins and suppliments. i'd prefer all these than those drugs medicines... even when i myself fall sick, i only went to the clinic to claim the MC..the medicines the provide usually goes to the rubbish bin.same case with all the medicines which my current doc prescribe for my pregnancy. i just refuse to take them into my system.adik beradik panadol tu jgn kata laa...dah lama sayonara from my life. no offense to any doctors out there... but it's just one of my policy. anyway, alhamdulillah.. at 9pm,after 2failed attempts to give him meals and 2 times vomiting, rayyan managed to take his dinner cheerly without us forcing him. the best part is, he's back to being my cheerful rayyan...humming his favourite nursery rhymes and smiling and riding his bike(in the house of course).. later,my MIL whose just came back from ipoh came over and brougt us some suppliments for rayyan. i can see that he's feeling much better ... he's asleep now. hope to see him wake up smiling next to me tomorrow!

Hayaku genki ni natte ne, Rayyan Onichan!! my cheerful rayyan!