erasing the memories

rayyan deary, kebelakangan nih rayyan byk meragam la mommy tgk.. maybe badan xberapa sihat ka naa? 早く元気になってねえ！ arinih mommy nk cerita sikit psl mommy's childhood story... i had a besfren..the very best i ever had( i used to believe so..). she was so precious to me.. we do everything together,we shared so many things and enjoyed doing it. we struggle for the best and created dreams we hope to achieve... we've known each other from standard 1.. the vows of "bestfriends forever" were often said... until 1 day,(which i myself am not sure when) we started to grew apart. of course the distance and time were among the reasons.. but i'm sure there's more to that.. just not said in loud voice. i made mistakes..(who doesn't?) and i asked for forgiveness.. she accept it verbally not truthfully.. maybe it is too hard to forgive a bestfriend who shares many things with you compare to some stranger.. and then again,it is easier to hurt people you love the most than some strangers. it really broke my heart to read what she wrote about me.. unfortunately,she had erased all the good in me and focused on the bad things i've done on that single occasion. i can't deny the fact that she's good with words..she's good at that. but i've never imagine her thinking about me that way. i wish i can deny..i wish i can protect myself for every accusation she hold on me...but,then it'll only make me hate her more when the truth is i care. so, i let her be.. let her hate me.. let her throw me from her life picture.. from her albums of memories... and maybe.. i shud just stop caring for her and start erasing all the memories.. i'm still trying... but the vows of "bestfriends forever" is still playing in my head.