masa kecik2 cerita pasal future

actually,xde la kecik sgt pon.bila agaknyer kita mula bualkan topik kawen nih yer? xigt dah.. huhu..bila mula2 pk nk ada boyfriend? well, in my case kalau tak silap masa umur 12tahun kot.awal?? hahaha..lawak lak..actually, before tu lagi dah admire kat sorang budak lelaki kat sekolah agama, nama dia Sazali.. suka gile kat mamat nih.. hmm, me dr standard 1 sampai la tingkatan 3 sekolah convent.xde pergaulan dgn lelaki sgt except kawan sekampung...tp itu mmg purely kawan jer,xde pulak nk suka dia...tp mamat sazali nih,suka kat dia masa sekolah agama darjah 1 lagi..sek agama darjah 1 maknanya umur 9thn masa tu...hahaha..sbb apa suka dia? sbb dia nih pandai mengaji quran siap lagu2 lagi, pandai dlm pelajaran agama n selalu menjadi rival dlm exam...he's got the quality i want in my future husband.kononnyer la..biasanya nama kami la kat no.1, no.2 atau no.3 masa exam. masa tu,suka2 mcm tu jer,dr jauh...dia pon xtau kot.turns out, masa saya nk gi intebiu sbb nk nikah dulu, dia adalah org yg meng'intebiu' nyer...dah jadi pegawai kat pejabat agama daa..terkejut giller masa tu... seb baik saya dah nk kawen masa tu( don't worry ayang,no heart feeling kay).siap gelak2 masa intebiu...borak pasal cite2 lama...rupanyer dia tau saya suka kat dia masa sekolah dulu.. cett! lagi nk ckp dia 'terlepas'...anyway, skg ni dia dah kawen pon ada anak satu.masih lagi berhubung di fb(thanx fb). ok laa,stop sampai situ jer cinta pertama saya...

as for me with my emirr(cinta terakhir saya), the process goes like this

admiring(2weeks)-dating(2years)-getting married(2days?huhuh)-honeymooning just the 2of us(2years)-having children(can't really put the numbers yet ;))-parenting(for as long as we're called parents)

sbnrnya, saya nk cerita sikit pasal bersalin.heheh..xde kaitan dgn cite diatas,or ada sipi2 la kaitannya.bukan apa,sbb baca kat blog anje bercerita pasal mana lebih sakit,sakit c-sect or normal delivery. seriously, masa muda2 dulu bila bercerita pasal kawen nih, i always tell my friends that i'll be the last one to get married among us...masa tu yakin giller2 aa.. tgk2, i yg pertama sekali kawen at the age of 22...hahahah..sorry guys! ter'advance' pulak.kalau cerita pasal anak, i selalu kata, i nak kawen, nk anak tp xnak bersalin sbb takut laa... tgk dlm drama, kalau scene org nk bersalin tu mcm horror giller. especially scene yg bersalin kat kampung.yg bidan kampung sambut...mana ada bius sume kan?sampaikan i terfikir nk amek anak angkat jer,skip bab bersalin sbb takut punyer pasal... pemikiran budak xmatang kan...

tp bila dah kawen, naluri nk jadi ibu tu naturally datang sendiri n taktau dr mana dtg kekuatan utk melahirkan anak dr darah daging kita sendiri.masa first 2years kawen,mmg xfikir nak pregnant,maklumlah masih ada komitmen dgn degree..kang tak pasal2 kena gantung pulak..mmg kami merancang.tp keinginan nk anak mula jadi kuat bila dah masuk final year n i'm alone..hubby kat msia.seriously, me xboleh berpisah dgn hubby.mcm hidup kosong jer kalau dia takde depan mata..jepun-msia,jauh woo..xsuka long-distance relationship.sampai skg pon..hehehe..masa 4th year tu mmg selalu balik msia,buat muka xmalu dgn sensei minta nk balik cuti.masa tu, i tot xkesah pon la kalau pregnant sbb dah final year.kalau ada baby,xde la sunyi sgt.boleh la ckp2 ngan baby dlm perut.n there's something to take my mind off from thinking about being alone n far from my other half...alhamdulillah, doaku dimakbulkan.awal2 pregnancy, dua sahabat baikku,ida & azizah yg jaga.bukan jaga apa pun,tlg teman gi hosp for check up, tolong masak makanan sedap2(ikut tekak org mengandung,eventho xde pon mengidam..tp sbb ada org layankan,syiok la meng'order').sbb tu rayyan rapat dgn ida,sbb dia dah geng dgn ida dr dlm perut lagi...ida la yg jaga mommy rayyan masa kat nihon dulu..thanx korang!

anyway,kalau dulu takut betul nk kena amek darah(pernah pitam masa amek darah woo),nk kena injection malah nk gi hospital pon seram... tp bila tau dah pregnant,sume tu hilang serta-merta...pejam mata jer laa.. keriangan nk timang cahaya mata tu mengatasi segalanya.sampai la ke hari nk melahirkan.mmg la sakit untuk membawa satu lagi nyawa ke dunia ni, mana ada org bersalin xsakit kan? walaupon kena epidural, lps epi tu hilang kesan,terasa gak sakit kan? lagipon, bila lagi nk rasa 'nikmat' tu? of course,kita dah mempersediakan diri dgn sedikit ilmu mengenai delivery n segala kemungkinan,tp the end result which is enabling us to hold that child we've been waiting for is priceless n worth the pain...sumpah tak tipu!

bila pregnant kali ke-2 pon, rasa takut tu mmg ada.infact lagi takut dpd 1st time sbb kita tau apa nk expect.tp i ckp dlm hati,sakit tu semua kejap jer..alhamdulillah,sakit contraction both boys dalam 12jam..mula dgn sakit yg manja2.sakit yg intense betul2 xtahan tu dlm 2jam.dalam 2jam tu tawakkal jer laa...hope for the best sbb bb kita pon tgh struggle kat dlm tu nk sediakan diri utk keluar jumpa mak ayah dia..so,kita sbg mak kena la lagi kuat kan?? mmg xboleh nk dinafikan kita kena byk motivasi diri n fikir yg positif... secara tak langsung, kita akan xfikir sangat pasal sakit bila kita fikir yg positive jer. whether c-sect or normal delivery,each ada dia punyer pro n cons...kalau kata normal delivery tu lagi sakit, i've gone thru it twice n each comes with different experience..mmg lepas bersalin tu,ckp kat hubby xnak lagi dah...sakit!! tp bila dah baik sakit, tgk baby comel terfikir juga about having another child(of course,bukan dlm masa terdekat,insyaAllah) .whatever pon,kalau ramai women out there boleh buat, so can you!!

for me, delivery is part of being a parent...the most challenging part is raising them to be a good khalifah...as we teach them to smile, to hold hands,to crawl,to take the 1st step without help... they teach us something at the same time...they show us something that only a child can do..

speaking of this, tak lama lagi starting on june 8th akan keluar tv series tajuk 'parenthood'. can't wait for that..we didn't subscribe star world at home,and right now kat rumah mil boleh la layan...nak kena tukar package la lps ni.

let me ask you mommies out there one interesting question taken from 'parenthood',

'WHAT IS PARENTHOOD TO YOU?'

i'm still thinking about my answer on that ;) let's make a post on that,shall we?(hint to dearest blogging buddies,fith,ina,murni,zura and any mommies who's interested to answer )

sekian merapu dgn ayat tunggang-langgang!

my 2 kids