mommy's back..not really on track though

hello rayyan.. hehhe..now that u are here..mommy can call u by name..name that i've already chose since b4 we conceive you..i always want a baby boy,somehow knew i'll get one..and here you are fulfilling my dream..can't describe how much i love you dear! right now,mommy is trying to addapt to a whole new life..whole new routine to get everything done..sememangnya hidup sebagai seorang ibu mmg mencabar..terlalu mencabar..inilah pertama kali dlm hidup mommy terasa kena kuat..byk sabar..kadang2 rasa give up pon ada..down..jealous when other people adore you more than i do..macam2 feeling..i know i can never be the perfect mommy,but i'll try my best to give you the very best..i want you to only have the best,even i have to sacrifice many things... skg nih mommy berusaha gigih utk fully breastfeed rayyan..from the moment i got pregnant i always tell myself,i'm gonna breastfeed you exclusively..I CAN DO IT & I'M GONNA DO IT!! i set that in mind..i read many articles about it..that mother shud breasfeed their child exlusively until 6month..and can only give baby solid food when they are 4months and above.. but,who knows the challenge i have to face to succeed in this.. all in all..malas dah nak pk apa org lain kata..skg nih dah malas nk argue apa2 as long as my son is in good health and happy..i'll cont breastfeeding him...aside MIL bg dia air sket2 ..yg lain2 tu nnti dulu..ok la..utk menyedapkan hati dan menambahkan semangat utk memberi yg terbaik utk rayyan..i treasure this..hopefully semangat murni nih xterkubur dan surut...moga Allah bg kekuatan kepadaku.. Saya kasi tips skit untuk banyakkan susu badan, sebenarnya psikologi kita aje rasa susu tak cukup...sebenarnya ALLAH memang dah jadikan susu badan ni untuk baby kita InsyaALLAH kalau kita berusaha ia akan kekal n cukup untuk anak kita... Tips: Pemakanan: lobak putihikan semua jenis ikan ikan yu (tak penah mkn lg) ikan sardine, tuna, salmon kurma ( jantung pisang (tk penah try) kucai +tauhu+tougeh petola kentang rebus longan kering roti biskut marrie daun turi susu/ soya halba (msk dlm nasi & air rebusannya minum) pegaga cheese sawi kacang buncis Minuman: air masak susu soya nestum oat horlick milo jus buahan buahan betik/honeydwe rebusan buah pala spirulina air kelapa rebusan air halba suuplement yg perlu ambik: omega 3 obimim kalsium vitamin c Utk urutan plak: 1) sikat setiap hari, baca selawat pastu sikat dari atas keputing....kanan dan juga kiri 2) cuci dengan berus gigi puting2 tuuu takut tersumbat liang2 puting susu 3) kalau sblm mengepam tuuuu, ambik kedua belah tangan urut dari atas terus lurutkan kebawah...(bc selawat dulu)...insyaallah itu salah satu urutan utk BF Masa pengepaman: 1)cuba pam sekerap mungkin, lagi byk kita pam...lagi byk pengeluaran susu cthnya 3jam sekali 2)mlm bagi baby isap kerap ....sebab bila mlm kalau kita bg baby isap boleh membanyakkan pengeluaran susu juga 3) bila pam, pam sampai susu tak keluar nanti t*t*k kita akan produce susu baru istilah yg kita selalu guna mcm kita 'buang sampah sampah dah penuh, kita buang dlm tong sampah pastu kita ganti dgn plastik sampah baru' gitu jugak mcm air susu kita bila kita dah habis pam, dia akan mengeluarkan susu baru 4) sblm pam minum air suam dulu....lepas pam pon minum jugak. 5) jgn minum air sejuk/ais nanti susu cepat kering Cara-cara Lain 1) baca surah al baqarah ayat 60. sambil baca letakkan tangan pada breast tu. 2) Sapukan sedikit minyak kelapa pada daun sirih. Kemudian layurkan pada api sehingga layu. Setelah suam, tekapkan pada buah dada. Lakukan setiap hari. 3) tuam tuala suam ke atas payudara 4) urut belakang 5) urut kat payudara 6) urut t*t*k pakai sikat·mcm sikat rambut 7) sentiasa berfikiran positif 8) invest pada pam susu yg berkualiti (recommended avent, medela, spectra) 9) Kerap menyusu bayi 10) kurangkan stress, jangan fikirkan perkara yang menyusahkan hati 11) doa 12) Tawakkal

overdue blues

dearest baby.. it's your due date today according to msia's doc calculation(japan's was 21st july).but anyhow,i think you should come out la dear..u didn't give any sign that you're checking out from 'there'.i've given you such hospitality that u feel comfortable inside huh? please..please come out soon.i don't wanna be induce,if possible(people say it hurts much than normal labor without one) plus,mommy dah penat nak jawab soalan; - aiks,xbersalin lg? -dah bersalin belum? -my,bila bb nk kuar? etc aduhai..at first sibuk fikir takut nk bersalin..skg nih dah sibuk pk takut xbersalin..sampai bila nk kena tunggu nak bersalin..blaa..blaa..bluess..bluess apa2 pon,mommy just harap baby sihat bila kuar nnti,but again don't wait for too long kay..sume org tunggu baby.nanny nak gi kuching lusa nih..she tot u shud be here by 21st..but u didn's seem to..ntah2 by the time nanny balik dr kuching pon bb still inside there...uwaaa!!!..hope not! here's the song yg mommy layan...

"Wait for you"

by elliott yamin

I never felt nothing in the world like this before

Now I'm missing you

& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door

Why did you have to go? You could have let me know

So now I'm all alone,

Girl you could have stayed

but you wouldn't give me a chance

With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand

And all my tears they keep running down my face

Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it's a lie what you keep inside

This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don''t know what else i can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for youIf you think I'm fine it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me

(How could you forget about me)

You got me feeling crazy (crazy)

How can you walk away,

Everything stays the sameI just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back

Girl I told you what it is

& it just ain't like that

Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me

Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again

Get it back to the way it was

If you give me a chance I can love you right

But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you

Cause I don''t know what else i can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for youIf you think I'm fine it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide

Are you that afraid of me?

But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside

Thats not how you want it to beBaby I will wait for you

Baby I will wait for youIf it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you

Cause I don''t know what else i can do

Don't tell me I ran out of time

If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you

If you think I'm fine it just ain't true

I really need you in my life

No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.